The me no one knows - SI warning

@AlwaysMyself Wrote

anything questions that ask about compareing one’s ability compared to others, I find it’s best to remember “worst time” scenario when answering those things. Not easy to do at times, gives me more appropriate response though a lot of times.

same as everyone, you are on the forums when you time plus feel up to it. If, regardless of the reason/s, if anyone (including you) are not on the forums for x number of days, these things happen. This weekend is going to be busy for me, open days this weekend where I live, I am one of xx who have volunteered to be part of activities during the weekend. Most likely I wont be back on the forums for quite a few days.

model trains. I would like to have them set up as digital, not something I have the knowledge required to be able to do. If I’m lucky, maybe some from the local model railway group might be able to help with that. Worse case it will be analogue which would involve having to get some updates done of some locos.

digitisl has huge amount of preferences and options when comes to running the trains. Some are it increases the number that can be run at one time, ability to control each train individually using hand held device, ability to have model locos produce different sounds (depending on set of the loco). Atm I do have a loco WP that is already set up to produce sounds.

It’s that long ago I went to the local show, I have no idea when it was. Parking is very limited nearby. Few years ago shuttle buses were organised to pick up from small number of specific spots (need to be able to get parking nearby one of those spots). If I went, there are only small number of things I’d be interested in seeing, no guarantee they would all be on the same day as each other. It’s also huge amount of walking of uneven, dirty tracks which wouldn’t go well with my back.

I’ve got small number buildings @AlwaysMyself plus accessories. Quite a few trains plus carriages and rolling stock. Not a lot of track. I’ve investigated cost of a starter set (consists of variiys different types of track enought to make and oval plus a track plan book) which is up to $200.

First steps are bills for alfresco blinds, electrician and cattery, first 2 being the biggest, before I can start to look at putting some money aside to start buying some track. I’ve got good size piece of mdf that I’m hoping is wide enough for an oval track, something to use to start with

Thanks @MissGremlin

thinking of you also.

somethings have mainly settled down for me. Still 2 areas to deal with. Will be May until I can try to deal with one.

last couple days I’ve managed to start to work on lots of things that desperately need doing. Trying to work out new pattern of doing things that will allow me to get things done plus spend some time on the forums. Might be lots of trial and error.

package of 2 LEGO buildings, one of which is Notre Dame Cathedral, were due to have been delivered by yesterday. Still showing as on there way when searching tracking number. More annoying than anything else

Avoiding certain roads is not too bad @AlwaysMyself

They are all alternative routes.

@AlwaysMyself wrote

some of those resonate:

- ”social interaction with ‘forced’ conversation”

In general, I’m not comfortable trying to do small talk or be a part of group/s with small talk. The proverbial ‘fish out of water’ feeling. Easily become overwhelmed and drained

- “high energy environments”

Thats Thursday nights Mexican Trains. Up to 4hrs of high mental stimulation

- “loud noises or constant noises”

For me, that’s most indoor settings. I’m also noise and pitch sensitive which brings its own issues

(Physical limitations with hearing, 2 more conversations at same time is just loud noise to me)

my current MH challenges

- mind overthinking, second guessing, self analysing/doubt

- anxiety, making it hard to engage

- anxiety, making it hard to leave “safe place”

”why bother, nothing matters”, ignited and fueled by feelings of not being wanted in F2F connections

@Flutterbug9 thankyou sweetheart ❤️.

I'm glad some things have settled down and hopefully the other things will soon sweet.

You are doing so well to get things done, hopefully you can find a good routine that works for you and allows you to do all the things you want/need to ☺️.

That's very frustrating about the Lego, hoping it arrives soon.

Hope you've had a lovely day ❤️

I sent online query to delivery firm asking for update on my latest Lego order @MissGremlin reply included the following
1). 2 out of 3 components were received, delivery put on hold awaiting the 3rd component

2) due to “backlog with deliveries”, im looking at up to 2 weeks before I might receive the 3 boxes.
3) in 2 weeks if I haven’t got them I can lodge another query.

not impressed

website for delivery firm shows 2 boxes have been with them since Friday last week with 3rd box having been with them since Monday this week. Thursday today and no updates online. 😠

@Flutterbug9 hmmm this just doesn't seem good enough really on their end. You would think that there would be an update given that they've had the 3rd box since Monday.

I'm not surprised that you're not impressed, I wouldn't be either.

How are you feeling today otherwise sweetheart? ❤️.

Fairly good day today @MissGremlin

Mexican trains domino night tonight, a lot of us will be having BBQ hamburgers as a group prior to starting.
it’s a long evening and I come home tired. 3 to 4 hrs when I honestly feel enjoyment and is a great distraction.

Short time after the evening finishes I emotionally crash and go back to feeling nothing. I can’t maintain the feeling of enjoyment.

any updates with yourself you want to share? (100% ok if answer is No). How is Casper going?
speaking of Casper, I’m curious. Did you choose the name? I just had mental picture of Casper the friendly ghost and your boy Casper 😆

Have you started working on the Lego pup? I can’t remember

how has today been for you?

@Flutterbug9 that sounds like a lovely day/night and I'm glad you can enjoy it during that time. Completely understand the emotional crash after though. Hopefully you can enjoy it for as long as possible sweet.

Updates for myself, I've got just over 2 weeks until I'm homeless which is weighing on me heavily. Emotions have been all over the place for me which has of course increased certain thoughts and urges (I'm safe). Tried to reach out to my doctor on Monday as I recognised that I needed support but didn't hear from him or the mental health team but I did at least hear from my counsellor who is concerned about where things are sitting for me. As for Casper he is going well, had a very red, inflamed and hot ear the other day so he's been put on steroids for 2 weeks but he's still his normal happy self and his ear is ok now. I chose his name and yes that movie was where it's from. Basically the thought was that cos he's black when it's dark you can't see him thus it being like he's a ghost but an extremely friendly one 😂.

I did start my Lego and I've finished it, you've just reminded me that I didn't share pictures of it here.

Today I've been pretty out of it and crashed it on my lounge, my body is completely exhausted in every way possible. I'm currently sitting outside getting some fresh air but avoiding the sun.

Not long home @MissGremlin

quick post about my Lego.

where I live there are no mailbox at any home.

all mailboxes are centrally located in one of 2 spots, depending on location of each house.

I usually check my mailbox each Wednesday, forgot to yesterday.

tonight I found parcel notification card x 2

all my Lego has been sitting at my local Post Office since Monday morning waiting to be collected.

Aust post track your parcel last updated on Friday last week.