The me no one knows - SI warning

@Flutterbug9 Thank you. Thinking of you too 🙂

@Flutterbug9 how are the 'casual challenges' going for getting out a bit more? Did you find out about the drumming? 😊

And what, pray tell, are 'ziplock alfresco blinds'?? 🤔

All I can think of is dining alfresco, putting the leftovers into a ziplock doggy bag, and umm... then I get confused trying to picture blinds that represent this 🤣

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@AlwaysMyself Can you let me know once you have read my post with hint of employer, will edit it once know you’ve read it

Will be a few weeks before I know how I go with putting the ‘casual challenges’ into reality @Jynx

Ziplock alfresco blinds = outdoor roller blinds

Feeling I’m in no win situation @Cuddlebear

Want to talk and be open. To talk about how I’m feeling.

Worried due to the miscommunication we had

need to have you @AlwaysMyself continue to chat with me at times.

Feel am loosing with my inner child who is scared, feeling hurt and silently crying.

hurting a lot again tonight. Going to bed in hope to get some sleep, sleep and not hurt.

im safe. Safe because of my cats.

@Flutterbug9 , Here for you. What's happening? Anything you'd like to bounce ideas off?

I’m tired @tyme Tired of the pain. tired of the tears. Tired of the mood swings almost every day. Tired of feeling like part of me deep inside is constantly in tears. Tired of fighting against panic attacks. Physically tired as can’t get decent sleep

@Flutterbug9 Back-reading now. just seen the comment - can remove if you want. 😊

Now I need to go back to my own past comment to see what I said too lol. 😛

Hearing you are tired of everything currently @Flutterbug9 *hugs* whilst I am reading. I care. I know how heavy it can feel.

Does tomorrow feel too close, or too far away?

@Flutterbug9 Comment makes sense. I work at the state/territory-level body of that industry. Or, I did, until they restructured and removed the IT section of it to standup an IT-only entity, and now its a portion of that new entity but still dedicated to the same industry/program as before still. New org name, same job day-to-day. And of course the workplace LOVES acroynms 😂.

I hope you get some good sleep tonight. It sounds like you really need it, from both the fatigue and to reset from this evening's feelings/thoughts/anxiety. *hug*. Here for you.

Awww @Flutterbug9 - do you mind accepting a virtual hug? It sounds so so so hard.