Moving forward (sexual abuse )

The other story I mentioned last night I will put here too @outlander. When I was 25, because I had previously had cervical cancer from hpv, I had to have a pap smear when I was 25 weeks pregnant. The Dr ruptured the amniotic sack with a cytobrush he used (which said on the label not to be used on pregnant patients). This was his 2nd attempt to get the right cells. I lost my waters on his table and he drove me to a nearby hospital. They kept me flat on my back for 5 days but then I went into labour. This lasted for 52 hours and then I delivered at 2 pound baby. She was so tiny she was called sugar bag for some time (almost 1kg). But she was a fighter and she survived. But the early birth and extra oxygen caused her to have an eye condition that meant she became legally blind. She had her first surgery when she was still only 4 1/2 pounds (2kg). That was so scary. But it worked and her vision has been mostly stable since then. 2 more surgeries over the years. Fast forward 29 years and I have a fiercely independent adult child who is also a parent now and doing quite well at that. But what that Dr did to me traumatised me as much as the rape or any other experience I'd had before then.

Thanks @outlander. I was pretty stirred up writing that stuff but am ok now. There is more but I don't want to tell it all at once.

How are you this morning?

how are you going @eth after revelaing this information?

Ok thanks @outlander but very tired. Catch up with you next time. Going to bed soon.

@outlander hope you're feeling better by now. I'm here if you're awake.

Hello my friend @outlander Has the shaking settled down yet? It could be nerves or it could be you are fighting a fever.