Moving forward (sexual abuse )

im sorry that happened to you @Former-Member i hope your ok with that now....

i ahvent told my therapist about the abuse yet atm we are working on SH and SI

no, its not something that ive dealt with and have found it difficult to lay to rest i guess. There's a deep hurt when i see kids of that age around the place. losing him is not a hurt that is ever going to go awya or heal i think.

this mightbe just me, but i wonder if its really possible to deal with everything seperately, as in, i know for me, the childhood stuff drives a lot of the current thinking, it affected my responses to what happened with my ex who was abusive, and everything combined led to my becoming very unwell and spending tie in hospital etc. it might be worth letting therapist know what is driving you to feel so awful/so much pain that you feel the si/sh urges? its all so interconnected.. not sure if that makes sense.. i am tired

lj

it does make sense @Former-Member

my therapist knows about my social phobia, health anxiety, severe gad, severe depression and the other ptsd event and ive inted this and it was suttle enough i think to know what it was without actually saying it

even aside from the other events and conditions i have @Faith-and-Hope

ive hinted to her that its happening but i cant seem to bring myself to say it yet

i know @Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member

im too scared to tell them

im not great at talkng either @Former-Member which is probably one of the reasons why its been hard for me to move on from it. i also dissociate a lot when it gets tough or i try to talk about it... which im trying to work on because i want to try emdr (a therapy for ptsd)... but cant while dissociating so much.

I usually write stuff down for my psychologist. i email her before i see her with the things that i wish i could say. so she has apretty good idea of whats happening.

im not really that good at doing that either @Former-Member but it might be ok to do when im abit more comfortable with her...