Re: Poem

i hello @AuntGlow umm thanks honestly im just unsure how to apologise to my forum friends that might of been worried or felt ignored or ghosted.

every interaction already help me so much by accepting me and giving me a place i can see and feel human care for each other.

im not used to sharing things i feel i can here, its not a bad thing just forien

sometimes i shock afterwards and its my experiences doing it no one has ever given me a hard time

plus i can respect varied opinions id be a hypocrite not to.

just the last few years i took some big hits and my small circle turned on me when i needed it.

since losing my psychologists few months ago in same week.people here gave me safe space and no judgement

i get so locked into letting something out while adding some context i forget you all are struggling so feel like ive been selfish and disespectful.

when people that i would walk through fire for reject me and a company that said i had a job for life if i wanted gaslight me so they have a scapegoat im not sure they can all be wrong so im seeing kindness and feel its going to see what they did sorry im doing it again

im not a sook honest

Hey @REDLINEZ750 , I'm sure you are not a sook. You sound like a fighter! One who has had to battle to get to where you are now. You are powerful. You are strong mate!

We love connecting with you. Somtimes, you might find we nudge you towards also including what support you'd like from the community so that we get it 'right'. People see support in different ways. Some just want to be heard. Others want other perspectives. While others just want someone to sit with them.

This is why we have the guideline "Tell the commmunity what you need". By doing this, we reduce the likelihood of causeing upset.

Thank you so mcuh for trusting the community and sharing @REDLINEZ750

thanks @tyme also thank you for response on friday

just took my support dog that im told is not a support dog despite being beside me day and night for 17 months getting me out of bed every morning and getting me outside every night and giving me feeling of worth not even interested in seeing us together.

just we can sell you one,

clearly established connection is nothing when a certifivcate is everythingi

im not going to even ask if it wasnt realistic, i know how dogs should behave around food and kids plus hes smaller than most cats dry all cats wet anyway

see psychiatrist tomorrow feel a bit silly after reading the self care section of tell community what you need, silly as its what i should know to do i didnrt look at the facts

good morning @heartathome hope you slept well, buckets are perfect for just such occasions and aircon!!!Fergie - Glamorous (feat. Ludacris) (PLS&TY Remix)

James 4 6-10

Good morning @REDLINEZ750 My partner showed up yesterday (I forgot all about it) and is staying with me for a few days, so I won't be on the forum all the time as I normally am. He's down to attend a meeting about his brother's funeral. An autopsy has been done, and it was heart failure. There will be a gathering in a couple of weeks for him.

Thanks for sending me the Fergie song. I've never heard it before. I found one with the lyrics because I like to know what you're saying to me.

The passage of scripture is both reassuring and confronting. I do like verse 8 because it tells me that my loyalty is divided between God and the world. I think that sounds about right to me. Thank God for His grace and mercy, hey!

I hope your day is okay!! Give Pooky a hug for me! Sending much love! 💛

My support button isn't working atm @REDLINEZ750 I've only just seen your post! I haven't read it yet because I want time on my own to read it. My partner is here at the moment, and I feel bad being on the laptop all the time. I don't want to be distracted when I read it!! He doesn't mind me being on here and calls you 'my boyfriend'. 😂 I'm so proud that you're sharing and can't wait to read it and reply!! 💛

oh well you are my friend @hearathome and im a boy sounds better friendboy just doesnt roll of the tongue the same i spose 😎

i tried to be quick make it short and still took 3 bloody pages i should of written it out in docs i think now i just started writing and thats what happened.

i hope your partners doing as good as can be hoped for in light of his brothers passing & it must be a relief now the police will leave it now and let family mourn.

i must confess with that particular song i only had few words come into mind about your weekend and they were glamorous and first class

it was the aircon i reckon

enjoy your day friendgirl see doesnt work hehehe

i dont know if tag worked in my last response @heartathome

Oh, no apology needed! @REDLINEZ750

Your thoughts and feelings are very much welcomed here.

I am so glad your interactions with the forums community have helped you to feel accepted and supported. 🥰

You haven't been selfish or direspectful at all! It sounds like you're really needing a safe space to be heard, and it would be hard not having your regular support system right now.

I wonder if you could explore a new psychologist or in-person support group? 🫶