Mixed feelings-might be getting another diagnosis (ED)

@creative_writer feeling guilty about not considering her wellbeing says a lot about you and your values - integrity, compassion, kindness. But it can be hard to sit with, and hard to shake, especially when it comes to family.

I think there's balance to be found between consideration and taking responsibility. If you avoid looking after yourself in order to protect her wellbeing, it might end up being detrimental for both of you eventually. In my experience, when I've found out someone has made sacrifices for me to protect me, even though I didn't ask or need them to, it can be really uncomfortable. Maybe it is different for your mum, but also most parents want to be able to protect their children, not the other way around.

I think the CAT team is always a good idea, even if it's just getting a bit of guidance around options or perhaps putting together a bit of a plan. You could even ask them for some strategies on talking to your mum about it all too.

With your psychiatrist, I guess the question might be around like... if you don't 'really need it' right now, what is the line you'd have to cross in order to feel like you do? Could you picture your psych's response if they knew that was 'the line'? Would they agree, or wish you'd reached out sooner?

If things are taking a turn for the worse, please don't hesitate to reach out to a crisis service again, or the CAT team hun - you don't deserve to go through this alone 💜

Hi @creative_writer

I would strongly encourage you to make that appointment early next week to speak to a psychiatrist about your symptoms exacerbating.

Thank you for confirming your current safety. I am sorry that you are experiencing these thoughts. Don't hesitate to call Lifeline - 13 11 14 or use their Crisis Chat if you feel unsafe at any point.

A gentle reminder that these distressing symptoms will pass. We're here for you💓

~ @Honeymoon

It sounds like you are making a big effort to hold things together until you can speak to your pdoc - which again, I do encourage doing on Tuesday. It's great you also have an appointment lined up for the following week to review your medication.

It can certainly feel like a long wait till appointments when symptoms are intense and impulsivity is present too. Sometimes taking things hour by hour can be a helpful strategy, rather than always thinking days ahead. It also makes sense that you are thinking of switching to online uni next week - it's a thoughtful way to look after yourself and honour your capacity whilst you figure things out.

I want to remind you that you're doing a great job of balancing everything - hang in there, stay connected, and again I encourage you to utilise crisis Webchats if you feel unsafe and need to speak to someone at any point💓

~ @Honeymoon

Speaking with your pdoc about these thoughts is a really good idea. You can absolutely get back to that stable place and feel a lot better, and it's more than ok if it takes time and trial and error.

Thinking of you💗

~ @Honeymoon