Mixed feelings-might be getting another diagnosis (ED)

Hi @creative_writer

there are so many things happening right now and it's so good to keep exploring what is happening with your mind and body right now.

So good to get to your psychologist appointment tomorrow and have some further discussions about options for you moving forward. There are many strategies that can support you coping with the weight of these feelings and thoughts.

I am glad you have aid you are safe - keep reaching out for support and engagement, and remember to be kind to yourself and take a moment to breathe and reflect on any glimmers in your day - something small that made the weight lift a little.

Mindee 🙂

@Mindee a lot is happening. My psych still wants me to consider an inpatient stay for med adjustment. I’ll wait and see what psychiatrist says.

I’m just staying safe bit by bit, but it’s hard when the pain feels heavy. I’ve made it safely so far today

Does anyone have any tips, still struggling right now.

TW: SH

I’ve just been surviving lately. I know I need to wait for my next appointments with my supports, it feels like therapy is at a standstill because my purpose in life has become surviving, can’t seem to do much else

Hey @creative_writer I'm sorry to hear that you've been struggling and that you feel like you're 'just surviving' right now. Thanks for letting us know you're safe - please don't hesitate to reach out to a crisis service if you find yourself struggling with the urges.

Have you had a look through our article on Self-care for Coping with Self-harm? I believe it's also called 'urge-surfing', i.e. finding ways to delay or distract from the urges, with the knowledge they will eventually pass.

What do you feel could be helpful from the community tonight hun? Your forums fam is here for you 💜

@Jynx

TW: SI

Right now I am looking to get ideas from others, it also helps to feel heard and have a safe place to vent.

@creative_writer sounds like a complex intertwining of the visceral and the narrative, which can definitely be tricky to navigate - especially when our thoughts are in conflict with our feelings. Have you brought this connection/narrative up with any of your supports? Could also be a good one to hash out with a helpline, even if it's just about bouncing some ideas around.

Since you're looking for ideas, I saw @AlwaysMyself talking about the 'dive reflex' in another thread, could also be something to explore!

It is really nice to see you hun, hope you can be gentle with your wonderful self tonight 💜

Hi @creative_writer

Glad @Jynx tagged me, even though it was either @Flutterbug9 or @Chasingsunsets who mentioned the "dive relfex" -- but i remember them mentioning it and that they sometimes use ice packs instead themselves.

I've often felt the urge for SH before too @creative_writer , and can understand the linkage between it being a substitute/prevention for SI urges, although i know it can also feel a bit different for all of us.

I hope you are able to get some support and ideas to test out to see what else might help as a "port of first call" to help break out of the SI feelings without SH. But as i say this, i am also not judging you at all for SH and totally understand the harm-minimisation perspective.

Sending you care. Let me know if you'd like to chat more?