Mixed feelings-might be getting another diagnosis (ED)

@creative_writer finding the right tools to help us function can be tricky hey. I hope your migraine eases hun 🤞

I still adore dragons, and then also got a soft spot for cryptids and folktale creatures - mothman, chupacabra, wendigo, yowie. Such cool myths 💜

I have just got the audiobook for The Colour of Magic by Terry Pratchett. Never read any of his Discworld series before but I kept coming across excerpts from his novels in memes and stuff and went 'huh... gotta get into this'. Very witty and clever, sharp observations of reality and human nature, really soulful stories by the sounds of it. I'm excited 😁

You still watching Vlad? hahaha

@Jynx I don’t see any other way, but maybe I need adhd meds. I’m afraid not treating it will ruin my life, I can’t hold employment. I know it’s not what my psychiatrist wanted, but I see no other option. Can’t say I haven’t tried. Since I can’t do things, brain replays things on a loop, I don’t want it to be my eventual doom, can’t see myself going on like this. I fear losing the will to go on if I stay stuck on repeat.

Myths can indeed be interesting. Never heard of that book, might look into it if I remember. Vlad is in the TV show I’m currently watching. He is full on mad and psychopathic right now. They used fiction to dramatise things.

@Jynx I think I’m going to increase my supplement dose, I think I can go higher. But literally fed up, I’ll increase it before I get the chance to talk to someone

@creative_writer I hope you can get the opportunity to try em and see how they work out. They can be super helpful in reducing that sense of brain fog/directionlessness of thought (apparently that's not a word? Oh well it is now lol)

Pratchett created a whole world, super rich lore, it's awesome. If you liked Lord of the Rings you'll probably enjoy the Discworld novels! They're less chronological/more anthology I think? But if you google 'discworld reading order' there's info graphics and stuff so you can choose your entry point.

Hope you have a restful sleepies! 💜

@Jynx I can’t go on like this. I’ve doubled my supplement dose for now. I know I should’ve asked someone before increasing it, but I am desperate for relief. It would be a while till I could get an assessment. I am feeling awful today, feeling suicidal but I’m safe. Been suicidal since yesterday. Hopefully the supplement helps. I’m not taking my anti-anxiety meds, I don’t like how they make me feel disassociated.

Pratchett sounds pretty cool.

I hope you slept well last night 💖. I slept okayish, woke up groggy.

Hey @creative_writer, sorry to hear that you are going through a tough time right now and thank you for letting the community know that you are safe.

I'm curious what has worked for you in the past when you have felt like this? Sometimes we have to dig deep and our past successes can help guide us through challenging times.

I am also interested in what supports you have available to you as the Forums are not a crisis services but are for connection and peer support? It can be really beneficial to reach out when we are not in the best place and have a converstation with someone who is able to provide the support we need.

I will pop a few crisis supports here for you to have handy in case you think you will find it beneficial to have a little extra support:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Lifeline Chat

Beyond Blue: 1300 22 4636 or Beyond Blue Webchat

1800 RESPECT: 1800 737 732, www.1800respect.org.au

Suicide Call Back Service: 1300 659 467 or Online Counselling

Samaritans: 135 247 (24/7)

Listen Well: 1300 111 500 https://www.wellways.org/our-services/listenwell-warmline/

If in immediate danger: 000 www.triplezero.gov.au/triple-zero/How-to-Call-000

I encourage you to stay connected with the community and share your thoughts and feelings with your peers.

Take care

RiverSeal

@RiverSeal I know self care can work-box breathing, grounding, exercise, prayer, music, watching tv and reading. Writing can also help.

I know I have the helplines, I reach out as needed. I reached out yesterday, I didn’t talk about the SI but it was helpful to get other thoughts out. I have my next psych appointment in 9 days. I can also see my psychiatrist sooner if needed.

It’s just been really rough lately. I get all these thoughts trying to rush out, too many thoughts at once. I’m exhausted. Just taken my MH supplements, hopefully relief will come soon. I do technically have a PRN, but I don’t think it’s worth the side effects

@creative_writer oh hun, sorry to hear it's been so rough. Sounds like you're still trying to get your meds in balance which can be a very frustrating process.

Glad to know that you are reaching out to services where needed. Can be hard to also get our support needs met when things are so ooky in the body. What do you feel is most helpful when you share on the forums?

@Jynx my meds haven’t been changed for a while, not sure what else you can do with them. I’ve just let my nutritionist know I’ve increased my supplement because my psychiatrist doesn’t want me on ADHD meds. I would have to convince him. I know I should’ve asked her before increasing dose. But sometimes you have to do what you have to do.

It’s helps to be able to connect with others who also struggle with mental health. I find it easier to express myself on the forums and it’s always great to insight on how other people cope.

@creative_writer from what I know about you, you generally do your research before making choices like that. I hope it's helped.

I think for me part of it is that I can think and edit before I post anything. Means I can take my time to really think - so I'm really responding, not just reacting.

Do you end up reading through others' posts much? It is totally valid to be a lurker 😋