Tabaluga's 2.0

I went back to bed here @GezzaP says 19 deg now, of course thats outside. going to start a big day shortly .I've got things to do all over the place

• pick something up bought on fb mkt (20 k's away)
• pick up things at Post Office
• pick upthings at Hardware
• scripts at chemist
• physio in bigtown w wonky knee(s) other one going out in sympathy as favouring it over one I hurt

of course I can just not do any or all of these things

stuff to pick up is at bakery tho

be embarrassed to cancel physio yet again

scripts will last a few more days

hardware not end of world if get tomorrow or Friday

Hey I could just go back to bed and cancel today lol

will show at physio. They even rang me last friday assuring me work around injury and do some pool etc

you will get to shower when it suits

Could be a busy day for you then @TAB . I still haven’t made it to the shower. It is still cold here and I can’t face it. Need to do my Spanish lessons. Would be good if you made it to physio.

I’ll be ok @SmilingGecko . Sometimes it is just one or two bad days. At least today is pay day for me and I actually have some money left over from last pay. Should do some Spanish. Thanks for your support it is appreciated.

Ha ha @Glisten . No worries I’ll get your wheelbarrow when I go for a walk.

I'm so glad I held onto my money but its going to be really tight this fortnight @GezzaP dont like the feeling. You say you will be ok which is good. Dont want you being alone in MI crisis. At least we both got paid today! I put my inheritance in a disability trust and virtually all the money is left in there through financial investments that pay for themselves. I can only use it for health and wellbeing purposes though. I am so glad I read up on disability trusts when I did. I dont know where I saw it. Maybe from my previous psychiatrist. But it was a good idea.

well I got stool .Exactly like pic. new home for my 20liter kero drum when I find a spot, ha

drove one way, came back another. not noticed poor people in that town before, there were a few about.person had stool was a shop as said. they undercharged me. they were struggling to add up 4 items in head . I'm pretty foggy today , but yeah. think I was about $2 to the good. I only bought stuff as selling something for$5 says broke . @GezzaP forgot usb drive and library just went home.going to try and get more sleep.Drive was nice but once have to think like head is a bag of water. already had pain meds and coffee, so sleep it is , if can fit anything in before leave for gym

Yes I hate tight fortnights when I have a big bill @SmilingGecko so I sympathise with you. I have my super to fall back on. I have my regular pension plus quite a lot of extra money. May need to dip into the super I recently withdrew to help pay for cataract surgery when that needs doing. I hate aging. Have only had one smoke since 7.15 today. The smoking has really affected my health and it makes me angry at myself because it is self-inflicted and stupid. I feel like a failure for not being able to stop.

Oh well I’ll stop whinging. Managed to do some Spanish this morning. Still haven’t made it into the shower.

I can tell from your message that your brain is a bit foggy today @TAB . Hope you can catch some sleep and go to gym. Unfortunately there was a water bill in my letterbox big enough. I hate bills they just keep going up. I didn’t use my heating this morning cause of the cost. Sitting under oodie instead. It’s a bit warmer outside now. Sunny might go for a walk in the afternoon. Only had one smoke since 7.30 this morning. The smoking has effected my health so frustrated at my inability to have given them up ages ago when I stopped for 6 months. Hope you get some more sleep.

Oh bugger there was a water bill in the letter box @SmilingGecko . It is bigger than I’d like. I live in a strata block of units so I pay a percentage of the total bill which means if the other people in the strata use a lot of water I end up having to subsidise that. Is due in this coming fortnight so no time to build up some extra funds to cover it will have to be paid out of this pay. Oh well stop complaining. Just hate the way the bills just keep going up.

I could honestly say there are things I've done that are self inflicted @GezzaP so dont beat yourself up over it. Just keep going trying to quit smoking. Both my parents were cold hard chain smokers and they gave up in the end. But yes granted its a very difficult habit to break. Dont judge yourself but in place show self compassion and self tolerance. It requires a tremendous amount of willpower to give up smoking so go hour by hour until you've got mastery over it