Tabaluga's 2.0

@ENKELI said:

“Tomaatii, father dear played favourites depending on who was paying him attention. While I was caring for him, calling him daily and listening to him bitch about my sister I was the favourite. I made the mistake of calling him out on his behaviour so he got the snots on with me and decided my toxic narcissistic sister was flavour of the month. Of course she fed into this by being a contender for suck up of the year and became his yes woman.

And when I tried to warn his friends that I had become close with they turned against me in favour of madam.

Last year when I mentioned to my dad that I was having difficulty finding work he asked if I'd stop to see the common denominator was me so I was the problem.

When this friend of dad's turned against me I started thinking maybe I AM the problem.

What if it's me who is difficult and narcissistic like he suggested, that I'm the toxic one like ex friend said I was, I'm the one who deserves all the crap I have been dealing with?

I know there are a couple of people in Saneland would be happy to tell me I'm not a good person.

"There comes a point in your life Enkeli, when you have to look at yourself and ask, am I the one to blame? You can't keep a job, you're always complaining about having no money and you've alienated yourself from the only friend you had." (Direct quote from dad about 12 months ago)

Sister was the successful one. Went to private school. Studied to be a dental nurse but didn't like it so tried something else. Didn't like that, tried something else. Didn't like that so tried aged care. Now works casual in aged care. Rents a house with her sister. Got an inheritance of $150 000 and blew it all.

As opposed to me - no inheritance, grew up barely above the poverty line. Got a mortgage at 28 on my own, spent 3 months abroad, worked for members of parliament (lol maybe not an achievement!) paid out mortgage 18 months early. Paid off car 12 months early but no Enkeli, you are the one with the problem and that's why no one likes you.

I still loved him, and I want the simple chance to say goodbye and scatter his ashes somewhere that is significant to him AND me. But perfect sister believes it's her job to do it.”

@ENKELI said A LOT 😳

Retiisi, do you feel a bit better now?

I hope you drew breath at the Commas and Full Stops.

What Cert 3 are you doing?

@TAB Yeah all good man 😎👍

@SmilingGecko hope they don't take long to arrive for you then ☺️.

Sorry for going on @StuF was a sore point/maybe not sure I shouldn't have gone. Felt crap today that's enough

@TAB now that kind of sore shoulder I would be happy with!! I have the air con going and stepped outside to wind the windows down in Paris and thought, it's not so bad. Then within a couple of minutes I changed my mind. Yeah, it IS that bad!

Happy Monday, here's to a good week for you.

Hey @TAB - you're not "going on"

If you feel that going this week would be counter-productive then I won't argue 🙂

Seems fair enough to me

I was just worried, initially, because I misread it as you cancelling full stop!

@MissGremlin thanks hunnybun I'm looking forward to the new me. Very happy with my overall improvements. Cutting back on plant fats and walking daily. Now fixing arms. As Oprah would say "everything is going down south" lol

@SmilingGecko i bet you are, you are doing amazing sweet ☺️.

Haha yes everything goes south once you hit a certain age 😂

@TAB @StuF @Bill16 hey cool friends, came home early from work and called sick for tomorrow ha.Hope you're all okay

I'm approaching 60 but dont feel like it @MissGremlin I never thought I would have made it to my age. I would say the 40's were the best times in my life. 50's - just getting older! But I'm now trying to be fabulous. Dont know if you were born when Absolutely Fabulous was on TV. This is a pic of Joanna Lumley I think her name was. The show was hilarious