New Music Thread (for all music, not just new)

@PeppyPatti that photograph was supposed to be a video of people dancing. Obviously, I didn't do something write when either downloading or uploading it.

$I would have spent the money on purchasing more coins, Lol You can never have enough pretty coins hehehe

Oh, and by the way, I watched Good Will Hunting & the Fisher King and enjoyed them immensely. It just makes me so sad, knowing someone that made so many millions of people laugh, couldn't get the professional help he needed to pull himself out of his own personal darkness.

Omg @Mustang67

I think they are my two fav. Movies !! 🍿 how did you know ??
I’m in the messy bedroom trying to watch Eyes Wide Shut. I might go back to fisher king.
it’s just ….. in my eyes you change when your ready to change and in the Fisher King :: when robin Williams changed he was ready to.
so that photo wasn’t you ?

also @Mustang67

iv got this weird feeling that unfortunately because of self care —-

not not living your daughter —-

it is how it is until you have rested. I think ide rather your daughter know she can see friends at her dads until your more rested ???
sorry if I interfered …..

@StuF @DahliaDreams @Cuddlebear @Shaz51

Love you @Cuddlebear

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Hi @Cuddlebear I am pretty mellowed out at the moment, as I just took my pain medication, but it is helping me slowly work through my SANE notifications and messages.

I have been getting over a disappointing Christmas, but I can feeling that sadness starting to lift. I just need to process the emotions before I start to feel better about it.

How have you been going? Have you finished with your medication tapering now? How are you feeling because of that?

@DahliaDreams

Love the johnnys. I bought their record back in 1987- 1988 I think …….

@PeppyPatti Yep, that photo definitely wasn't me. We aren't allowed to post pictures of ourselves.

We had a conversation a couple of months ago where we were talking about movies and you told me they were your favourites, so I wrote them down to watch when my PTSD kicked in next. If I didn't write it down, I would have forgotten the names of the movies and then I would have forgotten who I was I was talking too about it. Lol

Eyes Wide Shut, I can't even remember what that movie was about, but I remember that I didn't enjoy it.

You are correct, my daughter lives with her dad.

Short version of the story, in 2018, I was assaulted by partner, lost job, lost car, lost rental property and then lost daughter. I have been living in a cabin at a caravan park for the past 6 years, and there is no room in here for her. She has been here to try and stay the night once and hated it. And unfortunately, because of the ridiculous rental prices now, I can't see a point when I will ever get back into a house. And my daughter knows that. (Which really sucks because I used to own a 4-bedroom home outright before I met her dad.) So, her goal is to finish school (if she really has too), get a job and move out. During this year we have already had the discussion about her wanting to leave school and get a job. I tried to convince her that by staying until year 12, it will give her more employment opportunities to get a decent paying job.

She also is very understanding of my illness. I just love her to bits.

But I feel so horrible that I could not provide her with a childhood that she deserved to have. But she knows some of what I have been through and holds no grudges against me. I have always tried to teach her the lessons that I have learnt over the last 6 years, so hopefully she will never have to go through any of what I did.

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@Mustang67

I feel ………

the most important thing you can do is listen to her experiences that sounds very similar to my story.

like said - it’s absolutely none of my business - we all have interesting stories here. Through the grace of something iv ended up in public housing.
my two sons are managing their lives. They are angry at me over and over again that they don’t think I listen to them. They are 35 and 31.
it feels like there’s this block :

both not in relationships but work wise they are incredible.

@StuF @DahliaDreams @Cuddlebear @Shaz51

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@Ta

nighty night

Hugs ❤️ my sister @PeppyPatti and hope you sleep well tonight

@PeppyPatti I grew up living in public housing, which is probably why when I had the chance to build my own home, I picked one with a massive kitchen. Lol My mum still lives there. Her kitchen would probably have fit into mine about 3 or 4 times over.

I am one the waiting list for public housing, but the wait is so long.

Do you feel that your sons blame you for any issues they might have had in their childhood? Could this be the block. I am only assuming this, because I had issues with my mum for a little while.

I did a course that taught me why I was a people pleaser, and it goes back to my childhood etc. After i found this information out, I was so mad at my mum for not taking better care of me and making sure that i learned what I needed to. After 6 months of not talking to her, it was like a light bulb went off in my head and I suddenly realized that she was a victim of DV, trying to work and raise three children by herself. So, she was doing the best she could with what she had at that time. And from then on, I had a better appreciation of her.

I am assuming you have just tried to ask why your sons why it feels like there is this some sort of block between you. I can't imagine that would be a good feeling to have. I just know if I felt like that with my daughter, it would eat away at me.

I really wish family life was so complicated sometimes. I hope you can find some resolution for this, so your relationship can improve.