Connect with people who understand what you are going through, seek advice and surround yourself with support. We're free, anonymous, and professionally moderated 24/7.

47,612Members
1,358,869Posts
1,400,000Visitors

Despair potential trigger: abuse

hiddeniteSenior Contributor30 Jan 2015, 8:13 pm AEDT

Despair potential trigger: abuse

I have been diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety, social anxiety, and depression.

I saw a trauma psychologist for 10 months twice a week, but she stopped seeing me when my safety became an issue while processing the trauma.

My symptoms are so bad now I isolate myself in the car everyday to avoid triggers and flashbacks. Unable to go to strange places, talk to people. Just don't belong anywhere. Anxiety so bad I shake most of the time, chest pain and hard to breathe... This isn't living......

I'm too damaged to be helped, I have tried but no one will help me..... They just tell me its too complex and they are unable to help. I don't know what do do I have no support isolated, alone and scared....

1050 replies

811 - 820 of 1,050

1...81 82 83...105

In response to: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

hiddeniteSenior Contributor14 July 2015, 4:45 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

Thanks Jacques
I wish I could close my eyes and not wake up

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Unknown userMember14 July 2015, 5:13 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

Hi @hiddenite

I'm sorry to hear you are not doing too well right now. Please remember that you can call your crisis contacts if you continue to feel unsafe tonight. I hope you can continue to meditate on those beautiful and serene images you mentioned earlier (mountains, ducks, etc).

Stay safe,

Mosaic.

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

JacquesSenior Contributor14 July 2015, 5:29 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

@hiddenite, i know, i know, i feel the same but we have to fight on, it is what we do everyday. hang in their, you are my rock, my angel. remember i am their for you, standing right beside you, holding your hand. stay safe, remember i am sitting right beside you.

BIG HUGS

Jacques

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

BabooSenior Contributor14 July 2015, 5:35 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

Hi there-

what have you been up to today @hiddenite ? Ive had a really hard few weeks with family, sickness with flu bugs and a death- plus the weather i havent been able to get out for my walks. Its been like 2 weeks! so i know ill start to feel really yuck soon so i painted my nails up really pretty and cleaned my house.

I hope your on the forum tonight

Baboo

In response to: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

hiddeniteSenior Contributor14 July 2015, 5:56 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

Still here so low and consumed by the negative stuff.
My psychologist is unable to see me anymore.
My health insurance changed their mind and wont cover the month I spent in the mental health unit thats 25 thousand dollars I don't have.
New medication not working.
So shut down unable to help myself

In response to: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

hiddeniteSenior Contributor14 July 2015, 5:58 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

Sorry Jacques

I don't want to bring you down. I don't deserve your kindness.
When you are battling the same stuff.

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

BabooSenior Contributor14 July 2015, 6:00 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

Can you go to legal aid?

How long have you been on your new meds? They take a month on average to start working dont they?

Do you have any one else to continue to chat to apart from all us on here?

Do you have nail polish? Sorry- my bad attempt at a joke

Baboo

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

JacquesSenior Contributor14 July 2015, 6:22 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

@hiddenite, i know it is getting tough, it is hard to break the negative cycle, especially when the world is on your shoulders, i am so sorry you have been failed by another psycologist, they should not be working in the industry, IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!!!!!!

i am so sorry those ****** have changed their minds, you don't deserve this kind of treatment, you deserve better from everyone. including me, i wish i could be their to help you through all this, you need to see your doctor, by any means, hang in their, give it time, and try not to reflect on what you can't control, i know it is hard, but you have to try, it might be an idea to go to emergency. i am really worried about your safty.

Please don't shut me out, you are more than deserving of my kindness, we have been through so much together, please don't do anything silly.

i will be here to listen if you need to vent. try to get all your frustration out. might make you feel better.

Hugs

Jacques

In response to: Re: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

JacquesSenior Contributor14 July 2015, 6:26 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

@hiddenite, you are my best friend, please try to visit this web site or call this number

Australian Psychological Society (APS)
Telephone: 1800 333 497 (national number)
Available hours: 8:45am-5:15pm

Website: www.psychology.org.au

you will be able to search for psycologist in your area. their has to be one that can help......

Remember i am here if you want to talk or vent

Hugs

Jacques

In response to: Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

hiddeniteSenior Contributor14 July 2015, 6:35 pm AEST

Re: Despair potential trigger: abuse

Hey Baboo
no point in going to legal firstly I couldn't go and the insurance company is right in saying it's a pre existing condition.
I have been in these meds eight different sorts two and a half months.

No I don't have any other support except here. I've been isolated for 24 years since I was 17. No friends in the real world

and no I don't do nail polish , but I would like a new pair of blunnies size 4 ( work boots)

Karen.

811 - 820 of 1,050

1...81 82 83...105