Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Hi Karen,

Definitely a lot better thanks 🙂 No more decaf coffee for me at art (or anyhwere else!) I'm pretty sure that's what caused it. I went for a river walk late morning, it was beautiful but a bit chilly because the trees shade most of the path along the river. I had planned to go after school drop-off but had to get my car mirror replaced (yay, not!).

Take care of you my friend.

Kind regards, Kristin

PS Sorry to hear about the guy at school Awful. XX

That sounds really frightening for you. My experience of being in hospital wasnt a traumatic one, it did help. I was able to change medications safely and finally get some (very medicated) sleep after a long time of one hour a day of sleep. It wasn't a pleasant experience, and it certainly didnt resolve any of the larger issues. But in terms of changing medications (and the initial recovery from the attempt i took to end my life) it was... ok. There was no therapuetic interventions at all in the month that i was there. But i was abe to rest. I do hear you saying that you do not want to be there and especially after your recent experience and I hope that you can find a way to move forward in your healing with support with out it but If you do go back to MHU it isnt the end of anything. Try to treat it as a break and rest if you can. Here with you listening though. Can you choose to go somewhere different to last time? My experience may also have been differenta s being in the country it was 'just a hospital bed' not sure if that is different. I was lucky that they didnt transfer me though, i think my family situation and the fact that i had so few people in my life and for my children too maeant that they didnt.

here listening and understanding the fear.

LJ

Oh no Karen, that is so awful. Do they not understand this is just making you sicker? Are you able to tell them it is making you worse?

Thinking of you my friend. I'll keep that candle burning. Holding you and the girls in my prayers.

I managed a river walk this morning, the sun was lovely although the breeze off the river was quite brisk so I didn't last long. Came home and met with my (new) MH worker. Last term I decided to move across to Neami, and I'm pleased I did too. Meeting a friend first thing tomorrow after school drop-off for a chat and prayers, then hopefully time for a river walk before meeting with my Anglicare family support worker.

Hope for helpul help endures...

Kindest regards,

Kristin

@hiddenite

Thinking of you Karen, holding you in my prayers. Asking for an outpouring of grace for you and your girls. Desperately needed, much deserved. I hope you are still at home.

The river was a bit chilly in Warby this morning, no sunshine - it makes such a difference.

Hope for the river's soothing sounds endures...

Kindest regards,

Kristin