Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

I know that feeling Karen. It is truly horrible.

So here's some different logic: Your girls would most definitely not be better off without you - lets be blunt: suicide is often "contagious". If they were to lose you through suicide they are more likely to end up there themselves. So at the moment your "use" to them is first and foremost to survive - so they can, and there is so much more to it than that. But even that alone is enough of a reason. Hold on please.

Kristin

@hiddenite

We are all really worried about you. We wish we could be there in person for you.

Could you do something for me? Try to close you eyes and think of a nice safe place, anywhere will do. This is the place inside your head that NO ONE can go. NO ONE can destroy. NO ONE can make you do anything here. Just go there and sit down. Now, with you eyes closed, think about some good things. Think about your kids. Think about all the people here on these forums that love you. When the fear and anxiety tries to get in, remember THIS IS YOUR PLACE, YOU CAN DO WHAT YOU WANT HERE. Take all the anxiety, fear and any negarive thoughts, and roll them up into a ball. Now picture a wall with a window. Get the ball of fear and anxiety, and push it out the window. The window goes down to the ocean. When you push the ball out the window, watch it fall into the ocean and just get swept away. It's gone, out to sea. Now close the window. YOUR SAFE NOW.

Here is a quote from Ghandi - "You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty."

We love you @hiddenite . Please stay safe.

Hobbit.

Thanks Sandy. A bonfire for the night sounds like a terrific idea.

Karen please stay safe for the night. We care about you and want you to survive - so that you can find a time to thrive with your girls.

Kindest regards,

Kristin