Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

Hi Karen,

I understand your struggle with finding consistent help for your girls. Have you heard of Theraplay? We access it through Nexus Primary Health (they do outreach at Healesville & Kinglake). I have found it very helpful in supporting and rebuilding my relationship with my little girl, and helping her with reducing anxiety. It took 5 years of asking for help for her before I found out about it last year. I can relate to that - consistency is SO important, even for adults, all the more so for kids.

Thanks my friend, you and your children deserve that too.

Sometimes I paddle my feet in the river, I don't know if I mentioned it but I have a saying to help me calm down "me in the river and the river in me" - which helps me remember the quiet and calm coolness of the river always flowing, and to find that place where it runs through me - helping to cool and calm me.

I'm glad you've got some good company from the sounds of it. It is sad when people get very unwell, however old they are.

I had an idea which I wanted to share with you. You mentioned how terribly difficult it is to talk and articulate how you feel and your struggles when talking with the CATT team and the MH team. I wondered whether you'd considered showing them what you've posted on this thread? It's a bit like a journal in a way. If you showed them the actual posts then they'd know your forum name, which would mean a loss of your anonymity with them at least, but you need not do that if you don't want to - another option would be to copy and paste what you've written into a word document (which you could also edit if you felt the need) and then show them that - so you would still keep your forum identity anonymous. Does this make sense?

Thinking of you. Praying that the peaceful sounds of the river speak to you as it whispers its way to the sea. Hope for healing endures...

Kindest regards,

Kristin

I hope you have some good rest tonight Karen, and the staff on their rounds don't disturb you.

I'm heading for the sack to try and make a bit of a dent in that sleep deficit!

Take care of you.

Hi @hiddenite

We're here for moral support.

You're right, the system doesn't work - for there not to be enough beds is disgusting. However, it's the system, as you said. I really hope you're not taking it personally, or feel it's those in mhu pushing you away. I say that because I want you to keep reaching out.

It sounds like you got a lot of support and had some kind staff there - so this isn't the end. It's just part of the journey.

Nik

@hiddenite

Hi hiddenite, i am sorry to hear that you feel like you have been let down and fallen through the cracks, i haven't been in your situation personally, i have not gone to hospital probably when i should have..... one time when i was really not well i tried reaching out to the catt team but got no where, the feeling you get is one of bewilderment and fear, but it is best not to dwell to much on those thoughts, keep in mind that you reached out when you were in need and you did recieve help, i know it was difficult for you, but you did really well, and then you have also learned something else that with time and treatment will help you as a whole,

i'm not too sure if you have mentioned it before do you have a psychologist or psychiatrist you can talk to?

i tend to forget things so i am not too sure if you have mentioned about them before....

remember you are stronger now then you were before, we have all seen you show your strength, and determination to seek help when you needed, "virtual hugs" you are doing a fanatstic job and don't let your thoughts tell you otherwise 🙂