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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Feeling worthless 😪

Feeling worthless 😪

Hello 👋 I'm new here and I just needed to express myself to people who understand living with a mental illness. I'm emotionally unstable wreck of a human not worth being on mother earth. I suffer with BPD borderline type and struggling with all my feelings of hate anger worthlessness, I have thoughts of ending it all. I wonder if life is going to get any better for me. I hate having these intense out of control feelings about myself and others. I just needed to say this 🙌 I hope any can relate to my situation

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Thank you for the offer of support 🙏 I am desperately holding onto my cultural identity. It's not easy when you have had cultural taught to you and it's makes up who I am as a person, but lately I feel I'm losing my culture and myself. I think it's what keeps me going for it I didn't have my culture than I'm nothing in this place. Thankfully I have support here and I appreciate all who comments on here. @AlwaysMyself

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Thanks @Yuinblackduck73 I'd personally love to learn more about your culture and what it means for you. 😊 and if that also helps you celebrate and connect with your culture and uplift you, that sounds like a win-win

I really like the idea of people having meaningful connection to nature, animals, land, etc. Its no wonder so many people say they find being out in the bush/nature to be refreshing, relaxing, and good for the mind. I think there is a lot of wisdom in wellbeing from a lot of indigenous beliefs - and there are common threads throughout the world of peoples whose spirituality is connected to land/nature.

If I *ever* accidently say something culturally inappropriate - *please* point it out to me! I hope I don't, but if I do I'd want to know to both apologise and know for future. 😊 really that goes for anything I say - culturally related or not!

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Hey @Yuinblackduck73 sorry I missed your post the other day.

I was also having a difficult time during this last week, so I have found it difficult to post much.

However, I am feeling a bit better now.

Yesterday I went into the bush and collected some plants to do some weaving. I wanted to make a little something for my psych.

It was so great to be out in nature and even though it's not quite the right season I was able to find some good materials and made a little woven thing for my psych. I love weaving it's kind of a mindful activity.

As I said I would love to hear about your art whenever you are ready, or if not, that's ok too.

Also I don't know if this is too much, but I thought I'd post it here.

There is a thread about reconciliation:

https://saneforums.org/t5/Advocating-for-change/SANE-S-INNOVATE-RAP-What-does-reconciliation-look-like-in-our/m-p/1675382#M1903

I only found it this evening. I don't know if it will help with feeling more connected. It is in the main forums, not the Yarning Space

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Re: Feeling worthless 😪

Thanks I need all the support I can get 🙏 it's hard but I managed to make some bush medicine to cleanse my body and for healing

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I'm glad you have find healing with bush nature. @Yuinblackduck73

How was your day today?

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Today I was thinking about what an old elder said to me when I was younger about losing your culture.

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Sorry to sound so ignorant. I don't really understand what that means. How do you feel about what the elder said @Yuinblackduck73 ?

(I really apologise for my lack in understanding. I'm not going to even pretend that I understand)

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His words were so powerful and true, I really didn't understand completely then but as I've grown up with culture all my life. And now I know what he meant 😏 probably why I feel so strongly about my culture and if I loose it then my culture would cease to exist without a peoples maintaining their culture.

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I hear you @Yuinblackduck73 . That's so powerful.

I wonder if you wanted to connect more to other First Nations people in the Yarning Space here on the forums?

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I was thinking about it, just overwhelmed by these emotions and feelings. Thank you for letting me know about it.
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