I am not doing so well

Its a good song @Zoe7

You actually always belonged and people have always cared about you.

I think you know me well enough to know perhaps what is happening for me without me saying. I am feeling like shit and probably all my own doing.

Don't beat yourself up @oceangirl Sometimes things in our lives are just too overwhelming to handle - even if it is something you really want. Please don't feel like sh*t. Yes I think I do know you pretty well and being scared and not being able to handle it is ok You are also very much loved, cared for and there is a place you belong - if you are too afraid to go to that place then that is ok - but when you are ready it will still be waiting for you I'm sure

Sorry you are feeling unsure @oceangirl

Arent there job difficulties in many fields?

At our zoo .. the intake officer said it is very competitive to get paid work in animal field and not to bother joining as a volunteer if that was the aim .. as it would not help. I think you are great for doing that work .. for free .. and I hope to start when my market gig is done.

Maybe one good thing about dealing with general public .. is that so many random situations pop up .. and you deal with it then let it go .. but still .. learning and engaging re body language .. context ..

What about all the gyms that are around .. plus personal training ??

Maybe you will need to run it like a small business ??

I had to get my head around that as a piano teacher... took a while.... but you just start off one at a time ..

Part of what saved my back and neck issues was having a properly trained excercise worker. After working with him for a few years I was ok just to be with a cert 3 trained rehab guy .. but in depth knowledge .. made the difference as it got to the nub of my problem quickly .. and didnt send me off doing counterprodutive reps ... Aaaahg! which was the case when I first started at the gym.. I then coached my cheaper trainer to coach me .. cos it took a while .. but worth it.

Sorry is it your psych who is being negative or unrealistic ... ??

Public health sounds good too .. I know someone who had lots of arty but unhelpful quals and is working in hospital admin now with an MA

Just saying ...

@Zoe7

I am scared because I think I should be in hospital.

I really don't have anyone to talk to.

I have just finished chasing Kira around the house don't ask she is being her normal self lol

I wish I could just say xyz.

I think I am am afraid that I am going to be misunderstood.

@oceangirl Do you want to be in hospital? Why do you think you will be misunderstood?

Trust Kira to be runnng around at this time of night!!!

I love that Kira is being normal .. bloomin pets can get away with a lot .. lol ..

Give her hug from me @oceangirl.. I do miss dogs in my life.

So much I learn from animals .. can you give yourself the same latitude ...

Gentleigh Bentleigh with you .. or a wild frolic ..

@Appleblossom

You are absolutely right most fields have job difficulties except if you are doing medicine and then there might be a tiny percentage that might struggle to find work.

There is some work at the zoo I am working (volunteering) My reason for volunteering is to connect with people and to give me some more experience. Plus I want to contribute too and help people who are visiting the zoo. The paid work varies at the zoo but there is not much there atm- if you are lucky you might pick something up in the office, shop and hospitality. I am not sure what else that was offered I think there is chef apprenticeship atm and other opportunities. I think the market at this zoo is promising atm.

Do you think it would be better to do a cert 111 or IV or to do exercise physiology ??

I am not sure why she was being so negative but she belives there is not much work in EP and I would be better off doing nursing but I don't think you are guarenteed a grad position after completing your degree. What masters degree does your friend have? I actually wouldn't mind getting admin work at a hospital. I think I am just going to focus on getting fit & healthy myself.

Hi @Zoe7

I can't decide on hospital either with uni still in the mix. I think uni is very unlikely and I think treatment for my MI is my priority. I need to do something but what I don't know. I just fear being misunderstood not something I can really explain its just something that I feel and fear.

Is uni being unlikely because of the negativity from your psych or do you really feel you won't be able to cope with it? With any new year you do have time to 'see how it goes' before you need to decide that it is or isn't what you want to do. Then you can make the decision - if that is the way you go!

As for hospital - you have been tossing up this idea for a while - what is your gut feeling? Can you wait another few weeks to see how uni goes first - or is it at the point where you can't see any other option. If this is the case then do it straight away - the number one priority is YOU.

My feeling is that you feeling like you will be misunderstood is you low self-esteem and lack of confidence in yourself. You and I both know that we get so down on ourselves that we don't think we deserve to have some happiness in our lives - and sometimes when it does come we run for the fear of opening ourselves up and then wondering if we have let others in too much. That is not necessarily being misunderstood - it is more a fear that someone else will not like the real US. But the real you is full of compassion, caring and empathy - anyone who misunderstands you doesn't deserve to know you anyway.