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@Till23 thinking of you.

Thank you for letting us know that you are going to be okay.

Ohh hugs my sister @Till23 🥰

@Till23

I hope you're doing okay. Thanks for letting us know and look after yourself. Always here if you ever need a chat.

Hey @NightFury @Shaz51 @MJG017 the support button is not working for me.

But thank you for your responses.

I'm not one hundred percent sure where I am going to go from here.

physically I am ok now.

I hope you are all well

I am limiting my time on forums, so sorry I am not interacting much

Hey @Till23 I have had a very busy week back at work alongside appointments so I have not been around. Most nights I have come home to work some more and then crashed early. I have a lot to get done this weekend also but wanted to check in with you first. I can see things have not been great and you have also been limiting your time on here. I know it does not feel like it at the moment but you are a very valuable member on the forums. I know the recent upset has hit you hard but you absolutely did nothing wrong. We cannot always anticipate how others will take things but that is not your fault. Unfortunately we do not know what others are thinking or feeling, or how they will take things, but that is not on you. You keep doing what you have been doing because you are enough and we love having you here. ❤️

Thanks @Zoe7 and sorry to hear you have been so busy with working and appointments and it's completely understandable that you are really tired. adverse.

I recently had a wonderful overseas trip.

I can relate to how you are feeling @Till23 as my long term GP suddenly left the clinic back in February. The really disappointing thing was not just that she left but she did not tell me beforehand. To give a bit of context - we talk outside of the clinic as she gave me her private number years ago. She has communicated she wants to stay in touch but I am still pretty angry/disappointed with the way it all went down. Not only did she leave and not tell me she was doing so, we were sent a letter to tell us only a week before - so no final appointment nor hand over to anyone else. That meant my appointments were simply cancelled with no follow up. I saw a new GP finally yesterday at another clinic and liked her so have requested my file sent over to this new clinic. Not sure how it is all going to work out but at least now I have someone I can see. My pdoc has been organising prescriptions and referrals but that is a very expensive option so as much as I appreciate her fitting me in when I have needed, I cannot afford to keep that going longer term.

I can only imagine just how hard it has been for you with your psych. I find that very unprofessional and extremely disappointing for you. If that is the way you are being treated then you are better off without them but that does not help you in the short term. It is so hard to find someone you feel comfortable with and absolutely worse when you have limited options outside of major cities and with waitlists so long. I really hope you can get in to see someone soon Hon - you deserve all the support you can get ❤️

As for the forums - you ARE wanted and valued here. I know when things like this happen you do not feel that way and can second guess yourself but please know that you did nothing wrong. It may take some time but please believe in yourself because you have so much to give. Incidents like this really rattle us but as I said before, we cannot control how others think or react, nor how they take our words out of context or perceive the written word as something it is not. You are amazing and you matter to us here Hon 🥰

Thank you for sharing your experience @Zoe7 it sounds like a really difficult situation.

I wonder if something was happening with your GP, like she was diagnosed with cancer or some other major medical problem, or something happened within the practice and she suddenly thought she had to leave, hence the lack of notice.

I know that doesn’t take away how the patients feel. I would be pretty devastated if my GP left. I have even thought before, I’m glad she is younger than me, so she’ll be around for a while, but of course that might not necessarily be so.

It also seems like you had to wait a long time to find a new GP, which to me, sounds like an awful situation.

I think, for me, if the psych was leaving the practice I would feel not so bad, I would still have the lost feeling, but not the it must be my fault feeling. However, that is not what’s happening it’s only me she is stopping seeing. She is staying at the practice, so I think it’s something to do with me.

I don’t have a psychiatrist. Haven’t had one for more than 30 years. Now my cancer treatments are finished I only see the psych and my GP. My GP is good and she prescribes any meds. I haven’t seen her for nearly three months, since before I went away on my trip.
I do see someone for this medical problem I have, but now that’s not regular and in fact I don’t have a follow-up appointment at that hospital clinic now. I haven’t seen them since beginning of year when I had follow-up scans and it had only minimally progressed, so nothing changed as far as treatment. So my psych was my most regular health care provider really.

With the forums, I definitely miss chatting to some people I feel I have gotten to know. So I am really in two minds whether to continue. I do really appreciate your support in this though, so really thanks so much for your posts.

My GP took another job outside of clinical practice @Till23 I know she was becoming disillusioned with her work but she knew well before we were informed that she had this new job so I have been pretty angry about it all. Nothing I can do though. She has said she wanted to stay in touch but I have very little time for her presently ...maybe in the future. She has sent a few messages which I have replied to but I will not be initiating contact.

I don't think your psych has been fair nor professional with you Hon. Unfortunately you may never know what has been going through her head but whatever the reason, it is not good enough. Sometimes these 'supports' do not think of consequences nor the effect their decisions have on people. I am very fortunate to have an amazing psych and pdoc but they are not my first ones. My previous psych was great but I had to leave her because the therapy was making me feel worse. My previous pdoc left private practice but she gave me a lot of notice and time to find someone else. She recommended the pdoc I now have and after waiting a while she took me on and it was instantly a good fit - so it worked out really well. My newer psych was working with my pdoc before she left so got me in to see her quickly. That too was a great fit.

As for the forums Hon - their loss. Whether it is a real or perceived change in responses/posting/tagging, it is no less hurtful. What I do know is that we do not know what others think and can only summise their intentions/thoughts. It may or may not be a deliberate 'snub' but it also may be that some just do not know what to say. That can happen sometimes when there has been any form of conflict/disagreements between members. What I do know is you did not deserve the reaction you got and you did everything you could to 'fix' the conflict. You do not deserve to continue to feel the effects of this and I can see it has a massive impact on you. I will say again though Hon - you are valued here and deserve to be here just as much as anyone. 🥰

Oh I am sorry to hear that @Zoe7 that it was not a sudden thing and therefore there was time for her to give notice. Maybe she was worried about it, like maybe she thought she may let people down so she didn't want to have to deal with it in her own mind. But you never know what's going on for other people. It does seem a bit harsh though not to have mentioned especially to long term patients

That's the thing with therapy, you never really know what the therapist is thinking. If thy're running through their shopping list in their mind or actually listening. They are human of course so they also have emotions and maybe not so good things have happened to them, or are even happening to them.

Yeah, I am sure that everything that happens on the forums now or at least for a while if I stay, I will be super sensitive to. People forget to tag people all the time. Maybe you think someone is alluding to something about you, but maybe not at all, it's just that you are tuned in to anything slightly negative.

Thanks for your support though, it has been really valuable.

Anyhow, how are you going?

I had another installment of Patience on ABC last night so that was interesting. Do you reckon they have set up to make another series?