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Hello dear @Till23 ,

It's wonderful to just be barefoot on earth.

With the spirituality post, I wonder if it didn't get much traction because people can't really relate? It wasn't the wording, but I didn't know what to write.

I'd be super interested that if you are on this spiritual journey, to hear more about it in that thread. If you post, please tag me in because I want to understand more.

I think it's because for me, a lot of my spirituality is to do with christianity. So my brain finds it hard to separate.

How are you going anyway?

Hi @Jynx and @tyme,, I hope you are both well.. Yes,, I find that being barefoot allows me to feel a greater connection to the earth.. . I suppose it's like if a butterfly flaps their wings somewhere it can effect systems on a different continent,, because everything is ultimately connected..

In my post @tyme, I did ask if people though their spirituality, religious or not, affected their mental health, in either a positive or negative way..

Anyway,, the post didn't get traction,, but there could be multiple reasons for that.

Hi @tyme, I hope you are well.. Thanks for thinking of me and tagging me on the Job Opportunity thread.. Looking at the advertisement,, it seems there are a number of requirements that need to be fulfilled,, such as certain qualifications.. It seems like an interesting opportunity,, but I am not looking to take on a full-time or even half-time job at this stage.. I hope SANE finds some good candidates..

No worries at all. I just tagged anyone who may be interested @Till23

Are you okay?

Hi @tyme,, I hope you are well and are having a lovely Easter,, despite actually working quite a bit of it.. Thanks for your response.. I appreciate your enquiry,, I don't know if something I have written has prompted your enquiry..

Hello @Till23 💛

I am well, a little sick this weekend though. 🤧 I am a bit busy, yes haha but I am always happy to be on the forums connecting with you all.

I really want to sit with and validate just how hard it is to feel safe in the body when we have had experiences that have taught us that the world isn't safe - that we have to disconnect or stay hypervigilant to survive. So it makes sense that disconnection would feel safer for you, and I never want you to feel pressured to try and connect before you're ready. I know you know this, but it's just a reminder that everything is invitiational here.

I think it is more than okay to research and deliberate upon something before jumping in - you want to know if it's right for you and I think that's discerning. ☺️

It's great that you can differentiate various parts of yourself. I would be curious to hear more about your sporty self and some of the thoughts/feelings she has some day.

How have things been this week?

Hi @AuntGlow,, I am sorry to hear that you were a little unwell on the weekend.. I hope you have recovered fully now.. You are definitely busy on the forums, so just paralleling that in your non-forum life it seems.. I think you are studying on top of working and are you still doing shows?

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@Till23 love me a bit of chaos theory haha yes!! In some ways it feels like a whole new sensory way of exploring nature - not just seeing it, but feeling the textures, the energy, the earth itself. Plus, mud between toes is glorious! 😋

I think what has always stood out to me about religion, nature, and spirituality is that no matter where the school of thought has originated, there's always common themes - of connectedness, the cyclical nature of time, and a reverence for nature. In recovery, these themes seem pretty overarching too in an existential kind of way - disconnection from oneself or from others, the inevitability of loss as time claims all, and finding a sense of meaning and purpose in service of 'the divine', aka a force bigger than oneself, like mother nature herself.

...maybe I ought to share the above in the thread haha.

One foot in front of the other is the way hey. Glad to hear you're reaching out when needed! Finishing up a program is an accomplishment, hope you feel like you got something out of it! What's next on the horizon for you, recovery-wise?

Thank you, lovely. I am still coughing and spluttering haha @Till23

Yes to all of the above! But my show will be early next month and then I will just focus on work and study for a bit... maybe some dancing and singing for myself. 🫶

I understand what you mean by nature feeling safe, but people feeling less safe. I am curious to know if you have any safe people that you have been able to go to for connection/support lately?

Oh my goodness, you must be so strong, Till!! I am impressed.

Knowing that you connect to yourself through nature is so beautiful and a real insight into what works for you. Let's come back to this. 🌸🍃

It's incredible that you are sharing your lived experience and supporting people this way. The trial sounds interesting and like it could support cancer research too - is that right?

Are you feeling a bit better than you were after New Year? It sounds like you are. 💛

Hi @AuntGlow and thanks for your response,, sorry I did not see it yesterday.. I only logged on for a short time..

You are a busy bee, with working studying and doing your show.. I am sorry to hear that you are still not well.. I hope you fully recover soon..

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I'm not really strong, just a little old woman doing some exercise. It's nothing special, many other people do it, including people who are a fair bit older than me.

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For your show I'll say break a leg! And all the best with your study and whatever that leads to