✨Sunday Intention Setting✨

Thank you for sharing this @Appleblossom 🫶

What you have experienced has been so utterly complex and challenging... so I think that acknowledging this and being kind to yourself is really important - as well as softening into what is within your control.

You have worked so hard, you deserve some time for you and your family over this Christmas period. 🥰

@AuntGlow Thank you ... for .... softening into what is within your control.

@AuntGlow releasing attachments... the notion everything is transient and impermanent is hard to accept when losses are painful.

Sometimes I think attachments to people only lead to pain and loss but that's perhaps a trauma response, and there are people I cherish but rarely or never see. I've lost so many to death or estrangement.

Attachments to material things are a problem. I live very simply but struggle with hoarding. I like to think I'm recovering but the pace is glacial so I'm kidding myself. I'm deeply ashamed.

I'm addicted to knowledge and trying to be well informed. Release from that compulsion might free me for living more actively but would threaten my sense of self.

@AuntGlow

The veil has fallen.
I have seen the deep pattern that I sought in FP.
The repetition of the familiarity with the lack from which my mother was unable to provide.
Xmas eve, all core wounds were triggered. FP was not attuned to a single one, escalated the intensity.
Ended up in ED.
Was bounced from there the following morning.
Sought support via private clinic. Those places are not for acute crisis and do not hide that they are a money grab.
Removed myself from there when no support was provided despite and appointment being set.
Engaged HOPE team (for those in Melbourne, you may be aware of this). They are angels.
Was able to see my psych on short notice.
Stayed with a friend for a few days.
Found out who really was ready to take to action vs platitudes.
FP offered nothing but empty words.
I set a boundary.
Received a manipulative, ultimatum based text yesterday. Showed true colours.
Needless to say, that is over, I refuse to continue to cycle with false idols.
My intention, to not get sucked into the strong self belief and charisma of those who claim they know the way.
To recognise what it is like when people REALLY show up.
To not budge when my abandonment fear is screaming, knowing it will only continue the cycle.
Surface level masked as deep understanding and spiritual alignment is intoxicating, yet a false idol.
The drive towards familiarity has perpetuated my pain for years.
I refuse to continue this. I am not responsible for others emotions.
I see the few who have turned up for me.
Not with hallmark comments, but with action. With offerings of support, with deep understanding, with background efforts to understand quiet bpd, with questions around what I need, with acceptance of the tears and pain. They do not diminish or placate me.
They have sat in silence which me as my nervous system shuts down. They have patiently listening to me as tears stream from my eyes, not with promises or cliche's, but with presence of understanding.
I am staring at a lifetime of trauma and patterns and pain all at once. Constantly jumping out at me.
So my intention, is to continue with the therapeutic path and ignore the washiness of those who cannot be present. I will not explain myself to those unattuned.
My world has gotten smaller, but the strength is those few is unparalleled.

Hello @peaceandsafety 💛

Wow, I really connected with what you shared - abandonment stuff is incredibly painful to sit with, isn't it? I am so, so proud of you for seeking support and coming to the realisation that you are, in fact, worth more; more connection, more consistency, more consideration... emotional attunement is vital for people with attachment wounding, and it sounds like redirecting your energy towards those who are able to show up, will be so healing for you.

What supports will you have this year to assist you in this process? And how can we help? 🥰

Of course @Dimity 💛

Losing this many people would be incredibly painful... it seems so unfair, doesn't it? That we are allowed to love and connect so deeply, but that our connections will inevitably end when someone passes. I think it's okay to find this concept hard to grapple with.

Have you been able to explore how hoarding helps you? I can imagine if you're able to sit with the need it's meeting, then maybe you could invite in some compassion for that part of you who is just trying their best to survive and feel regulated?

"I'm addicted to knowledge and trying to be well informed. Release from that compulsion might free me for living more actively but would threaten my sense of self." - this is such an interesting reflection! When you say it would threaten your sense of self, what does that mean to you? 🫶

Welcome to your first Sunday Intention Setting of 2026!! 🥳

To begin with, we're keeping it simple: I invite you to set an intention that feels light, accessible, and achievable. So, if you check-in with where you're at and work from that place - what could that look like for you? 💖

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I guess my intention could be going to work for the next 4 days. It’s not light but it’s all I’ve got. @AuntGlow

@AuntGlow

My intention is to be a good hostess for friends who are coming to visit. This includes a bit of balance and looking after my own mental health. That might look like sleep in’s or taking some time to myself while they are here. I don’t want to end up tired and burnt out at the end of the visit.

@Oaktree @AuntGlow @Captain24 @peaceandsafety @Dimity

Dear @Oaktree @you know the funny thing is that I bet your friends all might need little times out too

it is so interesting you are writing that to me That I bet it’s easy for other people to forget but you got your class to see those Joe dispenza video didn’t you ? I was quite impacted on that but I find it hard to watch his video. I bought an audible on Joe dispenza I listen to every now and again and that’s wonderful in the guided meditation

@Captain24 ide be gentle with you. I’m wondering if you are putting your job at risk though lol

@Dimity @peaceandsafety

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