Functioning with ADHD

@creative_writer it is still a topic of research isn't it, the whole gut-brain and the intensity of the mind-body connection? I've found that even when the research has revealed new ways of working, it takes actual frontline clinicians way longer to adopt the new practice. A generalisation tho - sometimes we just gotta find someone who is already interested in the area.

TW Suicide

Hmm...what feels like the biggest barrier to sharing this w your psych? Like is it a shame feeling, fear of the response or of not being taken seriously, or something else?

@Jynx hence why I went to someone who was interested in the area, and they focus a lot on female health, though they do cater for non-female individuals. Only thing about programs and practitioners often have a cost. However, there is also a cost of ignoring gut health. I just hope it does what it says. I had to take the more financially viable option.

TW: Suicide

It is not the fear of not being taken seriously, but the fear of betraying someone that I love

@creative_writer totally, I definitely didn't mean to imply that it was an intentional manipulative act - more that one can feel manipulated into acting, possibly out of guilt, when one is presented with something like that. But I digress.

Two thoughts on the betrayal thing - first, on one level, can you share this experience with your psych without giving details of who, just what happened? That might not count for anything though and may still feel like betrayal, so my second thought is - if this family member knew that you were struggling with this, would they want you to suffer alone or would they want you to get support? Or if you like - would they prioritise their sense of shame over your need for healing?

Quite possible that the behaviour emerged as a result of overwhelming meltdowny feelings - often extreme emotions beget extreme attempts at resolving them. Heck, maybe this family member has noooo idea that their behaviour impacted you this much? Do you think things would be different if they were aware?

The other side of that coin @creative_writer is that the therapy space is the one space that is actually yours. Maybe my prior approach of seeing it from their viewpoint was unhelpful - totally legit. But yeah, in that very specific space, where you even have legal protections for what you share, maybe you don't need to consider anyone's feelings but your own.

Aye, protecting one's peace can be just as important as fighting for one's needs. Sometimes we have to pick our battles hey.

Good evening @creative_writer,

How are things feeling for you today?

I am wondering if you managed to talk to anyone you trust about how you've been feeling over the weekend? 🩷

Oh no! It really is going around... how are you taking care of yourself tonight? @creative_writer

You know, I completely get that. Feeling numb doesn't sit well with me either. I hope this is something you can discuss with your therapist/pdoc, it's so important that you feel supported and guided around your medication and how it's impacting you.

Will be here all week, if you'd like to chat about anything. 💕