Functioning with ADHD

Heya @creative_writer , what's happening? Anything planned for tomorrow?

Sounds like a heavy day @creative_writer . To be honest, it's impressive you see how much you push through to get what you need to, done. I'm interested to hear more about you 'resisiting' SI. If you don't mind me asking, what does this looking like?

Only because I have chronic SI even though I love life - sounds weird, but yes. I've been told it's part of my condition and may never go away.

SI used to take the stage, but it's been push to back stage now. Hence I was wondering what it looks like for you.

Also, with tomorrow, I have some long meetings to sit through, and that's pretty much all I have planned. Then I'll be on the forums later in the evening.

Glad you feel you will just rest up tomorrow.

Thanks for sharing @creative_writer . So it's a little bit like being able to use 'self talk' to 'reason' with yourself?

The chronic SI is always there. It doesn't leave. But as I said, it doesn't have first place, so it's totally okay to live with and I've learnt to manage. For a long time, I hated myself for having these thoughts - until my psych said it was totally okay to have thoughts, but it's the action that matters.

I think it can get very tiring to be battling these thoughts all the time. So I guess I've resigned to just letting them be.

Recently, I've been becoming more and more interested in the role of social workers. I'm come across a number of them, and I'm in awe of what they do as I've never known much. I'm also in awe about other allied health such as occupational therapists, speech therapists etc. I find their work so, WOW.

Trusting yourself and knowing when to share is also important, and sometimes when we revisit trauma, it can be very overwhelming for the body... @creative_writer

Sharing little bits over time can be really helpful in this context (this is called titration).

I think the fact you want and need to explore what was and what could be is amazing!! And I would encourage you to let your support system know that it's important for you to connect to what can be different, I think this allows us to heal as well.

When exploring trauma, we really need a safe container and sensory reprocessing - things like EMDR, havening, tapping can all support this. I get the sense you may have touched on these before?

I understand, private health is expensive... it can be really tough, you're not alone in this at all.

I think the nutrition and fitness program sounds amazing for regulation! I am excited to hear more about how this goes for you. 💕

@AuntGlow sharing little bits is way better than sharing a lot at once, it is easier to contain. I think it is also important to balance talking about trauma while also looking at ways to improve my life. I've done a bit of EMDR before, my current psych doesn't do it. EMDR did help, it feels like a weight lifted off, and I didn't have to talk about trauma in huge detail.

I wish it was easier to afford mental health support, but it is so expensive. I am hoping the nutrition-exercise helps, they have to go through my intake form and blood to get a better idea on what will work for me. I also have super flexible joints and I am chronically in pain-like hands, neck, upper, mid and lower back.

Hey @creative_writer I'm sorry to hear how hard this morning has been, though I'm glad that you've been able to keep yourself safe. How are you doing now? Is there anything we can do to support you right now?