My life sucks

@MissGremlin Always an invasion of privacy and he doesn’t care cause he thinks it’s not even an issue. He thinks he can do whatever he wants which is what makes him an abuser. 🥰

@Blackcloud it's wrong on so many levels. Definitely abusive and controlling behaviour.

@MissGremlin Yeah he even used to constantly send me messages of any type of positive affirmation quotes (whether it’s pictures of those quotes or even YouTube videos) — the ones that are kinda similar to the ones on the Toolshed thread even though I already expressed to him many many many many many times to stop (even having my mum telling him to stop) but despite all of that he kept doing it. I even blocked his number. But then after that, he would then do it from my mum’s (facebook & text) account on her phone to which I had to block my mum on Facebook because of that.

But since then (few months ago) he finally managed to stop doing it, and hasn’t been doing it for months now. He just now..reads whatever comes/shows up on my mum’s phone and uses her phone… my mum and I message each other on WhatsApp and my dad hasn’t sent anything on that except for just one video he sent that was a few months ago.

Before he sent me messages of them, he would used to come to my room to sometimes give me a handwritten positive affirmation that he wrote (for me…) and even sometimes he would come and say them to me in person too. Which, coming from someone like him who doesn’t wanna learn how to stop and respect his kids …yeah you can imagine how frustrating and upsetting it has always been for me.

@Blackcloud it sounds like he does that to try to make himself feel and look better. The fact that he kept persisting despite you asking him to stop is so frustrating.

It's just so disturbing in so many ways, the fact that he needs that gratification is just sickening. I can only begin to imagine how it has been for you, I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of this.

@MissGremlin I think he persists on doing them because he thinks that by giving and telling me those positive quotes/affirmations time and time again that it would like ‘help’ me & that he wanted to spread a positive influence… when in fact he actually does the complete opposite, compared to what he thinks he’s trying to do to me (aka. ‘help’ me with).

Hi @rav3n are u there? I’m not feeling great right now, I need someone to talk to 😞

@AuntGlow @Ru-bee @RiverSeal @Jynx any of u guys here? 😞

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Hello @Blackcloud, I am here!

How are you feeling, what's coming up for you today? 💛

@AuntGlow I’m just not feeling great right now and I’m having thoughts and emotions that are kinda bothering me (not su!c!d3 ones) that I wanna get them off my chest

but seriously how is it that I’m continuing to live my life when it’s always been … well I guess not like how most other people in this world usually live their lives as…? And adding onto my mental health & things here in Australia including rise of cost of living etc. that are making me going insane

@AuntGlow anyways, I’m gonna go and take a shower now. Have been resting in bed for a few hours now after coming back from a bit of a morning walk. I’ll respond back after I finish showering (if you’re able to read and respond whilst I shower)