TheVorticonSenior Contributor
Angry and alone
Hi. I know I should write some sort of intro but just don't really know what there is to say.
I'm feeling angry and alone and like there's no one who cares.
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Angry and alone
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
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@TheVorticon glad you finally 'got off your butt' last night lol Goodluck with the search for those Pokemons that are a long shot 
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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On the plus side, I'm actually much closer to having enough swinub candy to evolve one than I thought I would get. Another night of playing should do the trick. Then I can move on to loftier goals.
On the minus side, I don't know why the hell I keep crying. This is personally embarassing. It hurts and I don't know why.
I don't want to deal with this anymore and I don't even know what my bloody deal is
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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These thoughts are poison and I need to stop poking them cause it changes nothing but makes the poison spread. It feels like no one gives a damn unless I'm about to hurt myself but that is a thought, that is a feeling which is a byproduct of how the system works, and is not a fact. The fact is that it's the same level care factor regardless, before or after, my choosing to SH does not validate my pain, experience or excuse my existence. Doesn't excuse having the feeling to begin with. Doesn't prove that I'm tough enough to deal with stuff. I know all this but as I said, thoughts are poison.
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CheerBearSenior Contributor
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@TheVorticon - just wanted you to know that I'm here hearing you. I'm not sure there's much I can say that is helpful right now, aside from that I do care and am listening.
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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Thanks CheerBear.
I hate people and society and everything at the moment. I'm angry at everything.
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CheerBearSenior Contributor
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Can understand what that can feel like sometimes @TheVorticon. Has something happened today to set it off, or is this one of those things that lingers around? (With absolutely no need/pressure to answer or reply if you don't want)
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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Seems to be a continually building thing @CheerBear
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CheerBearSenior Contributor
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I have moments where I feel so angry about/toward people, society, the whole world and everything in it @TheVorticon. It builds up for me and sometimes the only thing I can do is something to release some of that energy. Like ride my bike, or dig in the garden, or write everything down full of all kinds of things I wouldn't actually say, or find something that needs to be thrown away and break it. It makes it ease a little for a while. I'm guessing you've been dealing with this one for a while and you have your own way of getting through it though.
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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I don't have good ways of dealing with it really. Sometimes I go for a walk and imagine hurting other people or myself until I freak myself out. Sometimes I SH when I get too angry to care or think. Mostly I listen to music until I'm tired enough to go to bed.
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TheVorticonSenior Contributor
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Right. Time to knock myself out before I lose my shit.
