Battles

You are worthy @MissGremlin. We all are.

You do belong.. a lot of members want you here and value you and your friendship. For me you have been a great support and it shows how kind and caring you are.

This is a place where we all belong even when we don’t feel it. That’s when we belong even more as who else really understands

That’s ok that you don’t feel

like you can give anything right now, that’s when we give to you. It is more than ok to not be able to offer anything, I didn’t for a really long time. I’m sure @Jynx was really surprised to come back from their break and see me talking to people.

Just saying that as I know what it’s like to just only be able to stay in one spot and not be around for others. We will be here for you though. That’s when we step up even more.. when one of us is suffering.

I do understand if you need a break though. Or to just post and not tag. I do that. I don’t expect anyone to respond then and it’s just me getting things out. If people respond then I really appreciate it however I’m just posting for me to get it out.

I think I have just gone around in circles and have basically said nothing.

Just know that I care.

Hi @tyme

Don't get me wrong, Luna also thinks she's a small dog and tries to sit on my lap sometimes. She's not small and she's not light.

She does bring me a lot of comfort.

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@MissGremlin wrote:

@AuntGlow things are really rough today, I've had little sleep and things feel so very heavy. I just finished chatting to a crisis service cos the thoughts were getting too much (I'm safe), now I'm going to try to close my eyes for a while. I keep thinking how I'm supposed to get through the day, taking it one tiny, baby step at a time is ok right?

Anyway I'm curled up on my lounge with lots of tears, Casper cuddles and a movie on.

How are you going sweet?

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Hello lovely!

I am so sorry for my delayed replies, we are still adjusting to new schedules and training, so please know it's not personal and I am still thinking of you! @MissGremlin

'one tiny, baby step at a time' is more than okay. How have you been feeling over the past couple of days?

I doing well, thank you so much for asking. 🥰

@AuntGlow it's ok, I get it. I don't have it in me to communicate at the moment and I'm probably not going to be on the forums much and may not come back at all. I'm struggling, I'm hurting and I'm just not coping with things. I'm safe and I'm doing what I need to do so that it stays that way, yes that means reaching out to crisis services when needed.

I love this community but I just don't feel like I'm good for anyone here or that I belong anymore.

Anyway I've put myself to bed and I'm going to try to do some colouring.

@MissGremlin what's going on over there, my friend?

I understand @MissGremlin 🫶

Please know that we are still here for you and we still want you around (even if your brain might be saying otherwise right now) - you are absolutely good enough for everyone here. And even if you aren't operating with the capacity you'd like, you are always enough as you are.

What might help you to feel like you belong? Let's work through this tricky spot together? 💖

I am glad you are safe and that you have colouring to turn to. Please give Casper a big hug for me!!

@NightFury I'm just colouring. What are you up to?

I'm laying on the couch @MissGremlin wrapped in a blanket, watching TV and thinking about bed time.

@AuntGlow i don't know. I feel like I'm letting everyone down when I struggle to reply to posts or dont get to reply straight away.

I just don't know 😞. I'm trying to do my best, I really am but I don't feel like it's ever good enough.

I'm losing track of time, I'm forgetting things so easily, I can't even remember things I've done during the day.

I've been sitting here with my colouring and I've only done a tiny bit cos I can't focus, I just start zoning out and then forget what I was doing then end up overwhelmed and start crying cos it's frustrating and scary. (I'm safe).

@NightFury it sounds cosy. Hopefully you can get a good night's sleep.

How did lawn bowls go?