Battles

I think everything on Friday was my breaking point this time.

financial things, unknown aspects of couple of things, the bush fire, flashbacks to large bush fire when I was 5 1/2yo, health aspects of a relative having opened scar leaving ‘open emotional wound’ with memories of my late husband fighting cancer.

I’ve hit rock bottom. Wanting to curl up in bed and stay there, can’t though. I’m numb with no emotions or feelings about majority of events in my life. When something comes from left field I don’t how to deal with it and don’t cope with the emotions.

@Flutterbug9 oh sweetheart, it sounds so tough right now.

Know that you're not alone, we are right here with you beautiful ❤️.

@MissGremlin hugs!

Remember, it's just your brain's way of protecting you and of keeping you safe.

Here with you @Flutterbug9 want to join us for a cuppa or a drink? You're welcome to.

Thankyou @NightFury my sweet.

I know it's just alot right now (I'm safe). I'm going to hop off for a bit. Thankyou for the chat and having a cuppa with me ❤️.

Take care of yourself @MissGremlin

Morning @NightFury my sweet, checking in with you today ❤️.

Morning @MissGremlin I woke up feeling heavy and I really hope it shifts.

How are things on your end?

@NightFury I'm sorry to hear and really hoping it shifts for you sweet.

I am also feeling really heavy and my thoughts/urges are so hard to sit with (I'm safe). I've made the decision to return Stella, there's many reasons why and it's not been an easy decision. But I'm trying to do what's best given the whole situation.

Morning @MissGremlin @NightFury .

Sounds like a difficult day yesterday for you (and morning for you NF). Sitting with you both.

I'm still dopey-brain from tiredness, even though i woke up 2 hours ago. Sitting waiting for my dog walker to arrive - dogs already have their leads on ready. Should be here already but must be running a bit late today. I don't have to go out anywhere, so that's ok.