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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Hi all @MissGremlin @Cuddlebear @Captain24 @NightFury @Appleblossom @Shaz51

@Cuddlebear 34 degrees?? I'm melting just thinking about that! Low-mid 20's today where I am. I am celebrating that you feel even a tiny bit better today!! 🥰😍🤩 you deserve to feel relief. I hope this may be the start of slowly more days of a little bit better as your body is adapting.

Went to the old plaster painting shop i used to go to as a teenager, with my dad. Here is what i painted today:

@Captain24 sorry to hear you feel like you get in trouble. I am glad you are doing what is best for you and your health. I hope when you have your test that the results are good with no bad cell growth. Fingers crossed for you! I am glad you have found the MH hospitals helpful 😊.

I wonder what enjoyment / self-care people are doing today?

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@Captain24 I'm really sorry to hear that you are not ok.

It's completely ok if you need to take time away from the forums. Just know that if you ever do want/need to chat about anything that I'm here and I'm more than happy for you to tag me and I'll chat to you ❤️.

It does make it hard when there's other stuff but it is what it is. Haha my snake is only little, just a child's python. But I totally get that they are not everyone's cup of tea 😂.

I'm really hoping when you go for that surgery in may that the cells haven't grown back. I can't even imagine how scary it must be to have that hanging over your head.

I hear you on feeling wrecked, I've struggled to get sleep for quite a while now. Sitting on the lounge with your 2 dogs sounds nice, I'm glad you have them with you.

I'm struggling today, I tried to have a nap but I've been disturbed by both phone calls and nightmares. About to get up and put some dinner in i reckon cos i haven't eaten yet today.

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Hello @Cuddlebear my sweet, I'm struggling so much today and it's getting worse as the night goes on (I'm safe). I did manage the second shopping trip but it took everything out of me and I went for a nap when I got home. But then I was disturbed by nightmares and phone calls.

I'm so glad that Wilbur's ear infection has cleared up, that's awesome. It's still currently 36⁰ here at the moment and it's horrible.

I'm so proud of you for having a shower sweet, well done ❤️.

Feeling even just a tiny bit better is a win beautiful, so we'll definitely take that.

I too have struggled to be on the forums much today so I'm seeing if I can catch up a bit now.

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It doesn’t matter, it’s just life and it becomes normal @MissGremlin

My babies are the only reason I’m alive. If it wasn’t for them I’d have been gone a couple of years ago.

I was mowing my backyard in March and I was mowing along the fence line in shorts and things and happened to look down and there was a brown just centimetres away from my foot! Turns out it was 2 metres long! I rushed inside and locked my babies in. They weren’t allowed outside unsupervised for a really long time!

All I can do is wait. I’ve had complications from the recent surgery and now I’ve been put on hormone meds that can cause severe depression! Along with the hormones in the IUD they inserted. It’s just a mess.

I usually sleep ok except coming off the last nightshift. A couple of weeks ago I struggled with sleep but less sleep had my energy levels higher. I think I had mania.

Im sorry sleep isn't happening for you. Nightmares must be so hard to deal with. I hope you are able to find some peace with them soon.

Thanks @AlwaysMyself. I’m going to disappear. My psych now calls self care ‘maintenance’ but I haven’t done anything today other than sit on the lounge. I’m going to have dinner soon and then go to bed.

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@Captain24 it really does matter, you matter ❤️.

I'm glad you have your babies and that they keep you alive.

Omg that would have been so scary and I'm not surprised that you didn't let them out unsupervised for a very long time. I never let Casper out unsupervised but that's just always been me with my pets.

I'm sorry you had complications from the recent surgery, it sounds like hell.

I find that sometimes aswell, having less sleep but having more energy. Very well could have been mania. Hoping you can get a good night's sleep tonight.

Please be gentle with yourself and know that you are always welcome here and we will be here to support you.

Sending you hugs sweet, I'm always here for you ❤️

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Hugs ❤️ @Captain24

Today @MissGremlin , @AlwaysMyself , @Cuddlebear , @Spiritual_tree

I have been here on the forum

And also playing words with friends

And now make fish cakes with tin tuna 😊

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Hello @AlwaysMyself, I absolutely love the little house you painted today. Well done ❤️

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@Shaz51 sounds like a lovely way to spend the day.

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Having soo much rain 🌧 here @MissGremlin , @AlwaysMyself , @Cuddlebear @CM6

Getting cut off on the highway but no flooding in town

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@MissGremlin Sorry about sleep interuptions.

Wow. What kind of snake? How big a container?

@Shaz51 Yep. Metoo. Bloomin button ... doesnt know whether its on or off.

@AlwaysMyself Sounds like you still try with our father. Ach! Humans and Family!

@Cuddlebear I am in Melbourne, so it is warm here, but not too bad. Cant complain.

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