Battles

@NightHedgehog at the moment I'm wide awake. Fingers crossed sleep comes at some stage. Thankyou and thanks for being here tonight ❤️.

I'm sorry to hear about your friend/family member. Thinking of you and here for you, if and when you need @MissGremlin

Hello @NightFury my sweet, thankyou ❤️. It's really hitting me hard, she was a niece to me but she was also the same age as my daughter.

How are you feeling today sweet?

I'm not feeling great, physically @MissGremlin kinda anxious and just super super tired, I think. I'll be fine. I'll get through the day.

@NightFury sorry to hear you are not feeling great physically. Remember to be gentle with yourself sweet and I'll be around all day if you want/need to chat at any stage. Sending you hugs beautiful ❤️

Hello @Cuddlebear my sweet. I'll start by saying that I'm safe and I'm doing what i can, but I'm struggling so much at the moment.

My head is a mess, I'm feeling so many emotions and feelings. Just when I think that maybe I'll be ok, that just maybe I'll get through this then something else happens. But it's never just one thing, it's multiple things at once that just tears me into a million pieces.

Right now I'm trying to stay connected here but there's a big part of me that's telling me to step back so that i don't burden everyone. But I know that outside of here i don't have any support and noone to talk to. I'm just hurting so much, my heart feels truly broken. Today I haven't moved from my bed and i don't want to, I don't want to face the world, I just want silence and I just want things to calm down long enough that I can catch my breath.

I appreciate you being here so much, your love and kindness means the world to me. Thankyou for the love and hugs and know that I'm sending them your way aswell beautiful ❤️

@MissGremlin Hello my beautiful and much loved friend. Firstly I want to say and reassure you that you are not a burden in any way shape or form. You are someone who I want to support and I am so glad you reached out here where we can talk and work through everything together. If I knew you F2F I’d be right there as long as you needed. You’re not a burden on the forums as there’s so many of us that truly care and want to be supportive.

I am glad you are safe.

I can feel your pain and what is an enormous struggle right now. It is hard so terribly hard when you face multiple things going wrong and at a time when you are struggling. I completely understand how it feels from lived experience.

Are any of these things that are happening something you want to share here with me? Perhaps by talking it will help share the burden and maybe we can find somethings together to help? No pressure at all. I totally understand if you don’t want to say on the forums.

It is Ok to be in bed all day and not want to face the world. You are not failing for doing that. I know though it means you are feeling a lot of pain and distress.

You will catch a break. I honestly say this not to just make you feel better but because in my 50 plus years of life I’ve learned that the break does come and we can catch our breath again. Even good things come that we don’t expect.

Like you in the F2F world I have no one. Literally no one. But you have me here. And I’m a real human and I care about you and how you are feeling.

We can talk about anything you want. Anytime.

Sending more hugs, love and healing.

@MissGremlin My darling friend. I am so very sorry that someone you love has died by suicide. You must be feeling many different emotions and shock at the terrible news. I can understand feeling like this just can’t be real. It’s so hard to accept and our bodies go in shock. The fact you’ve known one another since childhood and spent Xmas together etc like family makes it particularly brutal. I’m so very sorry I really am and they were so young and it’s absolutely tragic.

My mum died by suicide. It absolutely broke me. I can very much relate to how you would be feeling right now.

Im here if you need to talk ok. I can understand the grief and shock.

Oh @MissGremlin I am so, so sorry for your loss. How devastating to you and all who have been impacted by their passing. Sending condolences and squishy hugs your way

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I think a day or two in bed is soooo valid, so you can make some space for the grief. Your forums fam is here for you hun 💜

Thankyou @Jynx ❤️.

I want to reply to posts but I just don't have it in me, everytime I try i just start crying. I don't like being in this space, I don't like these feelings, everything hurts, everything feels heavy.

I'm safe for the moment but I feel so broken.