Battles

Glad to hear that I made you smile @MissGremlin

A rest day sounds perfect for you.

@NightFury how are you feeling at the moment sweet? Sorry I went a bit quiet, I could just see all the comments on your thread and didn't really have much else to add that hadn't been said, also didn't want to add to the overwhelm that I know we both struggle with.

I really love the friendship you both have. @MissGremlin @NightFury 🥹

I am so glad you reached out to a crisis service and that you're keeping yourself safe - we care about you lots, like NightFury said.

It's so interesting that supporting others helps you, that's really wonderful to notice!! And it's okay, grounding doesn't always work perfectly... maybe colouring will help? What are you working on? 😍

I admit, I was a bit overwhelmed and stressed, over there with everyone commenting at once @MissGremlin. You don't need to apologise at all.

I am trying not to stress out/get all anxious about going to bed. I'm also trying not to stress out/get all anxious about the working week and the job search by reminding myself that I am doing everything that I can in that regard.

@AuntGlow oh I love the friendship we have too 😊. I can't for the life of me make friends in the real world but online I seem to do ok with.

Thankyou i am trying so hard. But I'll share something openly that I found myself doing earlier this evening.

Trigger warning, SI:

There's just been so much going on and I'm exhausted and overwhelmed and without proper professional support I'm just not coping. I do have an appointment with my doctor on Tuesday so I'll tell him where I'm at also but then he's going away for 2 weeks which worries me. I just feel that things are getting so much worse with my mental health and getting support is proving to be really challenging. Was also going to ask if we could possibly work on a safety plan cos the one i did have is really not usable anymore cos things have changed.

On that note, I'm trying to work on my colouring but I do struggle to focus at the moment cos my thoughts and the voices get so loud in my head and then words or the picture I'm working on starts moving around and like it's jumping out at me.

Here's the one I'm working on at the moment

@NightFury i completely understand which is why I didn't comment too much.

I hear you sweet, I'm still here with you ❤️. You are doing so well to manage things and yes you are doing everything you can with the job search situation. I know it's scary, the unknown about the future but for tonight let's just focus on the here and now.

Thank you for sharing this with me. @MissGremlin 🥰

How about we re-work your safety plan tomorrow?

@AuntGlow I'd really appreciate that. I just want to make sure I have something in place to hopefully support me.

I'm trying do hard @MissGremlin so that future in my head doesn't eventuate.

The here and now...I am tucked into bed, the loungeroom light was off, but I got up and turned it back on, Luna is sleep breathing beside me and I'm trying to relax my body.

I am going to tap out soon and try to get some sleep.

@NightFury i know you are sweet and I'm so proud of you ❤️.

I'm glad you are tucked into bed and it's ok that the loungeroom light is on. Having Luna beside you sleep breathing sounds soothing and I'm hoping you can relax your body soon.

I hope you are able to get a better sleep tonight my sweet. I'll check in with you tomorrow morning. Night night beautiful ❤️