FORUMS

Connect with people who understand what you are going through, seek advice and surround yourself with support. We're free, anonymous, and professionally moderated 24/7.

  • 47,612Members
  • 1,358,869Posts
  • 1,400,000Visitors
Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

13205 replies

6,611 - 6,620 of 13,205

In response to: Battles

Re: Battles

Evening @MissGremlin 😊, your rest day sounds good, tbh I am having one of those myself.


Sorry that your walk was shorter as you were feeling dizzy and hope that has improved since you have been home and taking it easy 🙏

Hows your puzzle going? The stitch one 😊 or have you been working on something else lately?


Thanks re your encouragement re the forum, always keen to learn etc so it’s been good in that way and meeting people like yourself 🤗. I enjoy our chats!!

A bit hard re forum stuff sometimes too when you have dyslexia and adhd as-well 😅, but never use them as an excuse, they are just my hurdles re keeping track of posts, and the main ones have to be spelling and if my msgs make sense lol 😌, sometimes I have to do a few edits- I have often wondered if when you tag someone and you edit a post are they re notified of a tag/post? Hope not lol.

Ah don’t worry about your memory mine is also shocking lol. Sorry to hear about your CPTSD, it’s a lot right, I get it.

Yep the popsocket is colourful haha the last one was black and so was my phone cover and so sometimes I’d loose my phone and the colours definitely didn’t help me out looking for it 😅, hoping with a colourful one means my phone won’t be as lost for long lol.

funny though, I put it on in a hurry and probably didn’t let it stick properly and it feel off and then again, so had to get some superglue in the end to make it stay on 🤣

Oh thanks re appt hmm it was interesting. A doctors one. She took all my energy for some reason, I left there so tired and still am. Gah.

not sure of her really. but she bulk bills which is the only reason I’ve stuck with her.

Oh I am looking forward to hearing when you and Casper go to the beach one time!! Also for his first trip! Def no rush your end.

What’s not safe atm re beach where you are?😬

In response to: Re: Battles

Re: Battles

@Chasingsunsets a rest day was very much needed today.

I'm feeling a little better with the dizziness but feeling very vulnerable, emotional and fragile (I'm safe though).

I haven't really done any of the puzzle lately, I've lost the motivation for it at the moment. I'll get there eventually with it.

I also enjoy our chats, just sorry it's been limited lately. I've struggled with communication other than very brief chats.

Oh I hear you, it takes me so long to reply to posts at times cos I go through and make sure things are worded properly, spelling etc. Haha I worried about that at one point but no they don't get notified again if you edit it 😊.

My memory frustrates me, like I can recite certain movies word for word that I've watched as a child but like the audiobook that I just listened to i couldn't tell you anything about it. Brains are silly things at times 😂.

Haha well hopefully it helps your phone to stand out. You just couldn't leave it long enough to let it set (don't worry I'd be the same), lucky for superglue 😂.

I've had appointments that have drained me like that, it's exhausting to say the least. But a bonus to her being bulk billed.

Our beaches here at the moment have an algae bloom and it's not safe. It's sadly claimed the lives of alot of ocean life and has caused pets and humans to come down ill. I'm not prepared to take the risk of taking Casper down there until it's hopefully over.

In response to: Re: Battles

Re: Battles

Hey @MissGremlin I am glad the rest day helped somewhat and the dizziness has improved. Sorry about your feelings of vulnerability and that you are feeling fragile.

Definitely no rush with your puzzle. What do you like doing on your rest days?

Nah, no pressure your end. You do what you need for you, if I msg there never any pressure of time frame to respond or even if you didn’t want to respond that’s fine too 💜

(Also sorry for the big posts I try to condense them 😜, still end up long 😬)

Yeah only bonus is she bulk bills me. Friends of mine don’t like her at all. They think I need to change drs. Logically I know I should too, too many red flags her end. But for some reason I keep going to her 🙈. Ah well it is what it is, don’t trust her though or her decisions so makes it hard lol but this outcome are from evidence not just gut feelings 😌. I feel like I give people fair chances.

Oh I am glad people don’t get notified again if I edit otherwise that’s a lot of notifications people would get 😆🤭


Oh no an algae bloom, they aren’t great at all. Sad too so many animals die 😞. I hope it clears soon so you guys can head to the beach! I really enjoy the beach!! You’ll have to keep us posted when you get down there 🙏

In response to: Re: Battles

Re: Battles

@MissGremlin checking in on you this morning?

In response to: Re: Battles

Re: Battles

Hello @NightFury, sorry I couldn't message earlier. It really has been quite the day for me.

How are you going?

In response to: Re: Battles

Re: Battles

I hope you're okay? @MissGremlin here to chat if you need.

Me? I'm not feeling all that great this afternoon. I have a sore throat and feeling as if I'm coming down with something.

In response to: Re: Battles

Re: Battles

Thankyou @NightFury ❤️.

Oh I'm sorry to hear, I hope you are feeling better soon.

I'm just at the shops but would love to chat when I am back if you are still up for it.

In response to: Re: Battles

Re: Battles

Absolutely @MissGremlin let me know when you're ready.

In response to: Re: Battles

Re: Battles

@NightFury i just got home, thinking of what I should have to drink.

In response to: Re: Battles

Re: Battles

I've just finished a coffee, but I'm happy to join you for another drink. It's cold and rainy here, so it's hot drink weather for sure. @MissGremlin

6,611 - 6,620 of 13,205