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@AuntGlow I'm not sure what I need overall at this stage. I've been trying to break things down so i can focus on one thing at a time but my brain just throws everything at me at once and then things spiral quickly in those moments.

Going for a walk with Casper is good and I'm proud of myself for keeping it up even when I haven't felt like it. I just lay on my lounge with him, usually try to catch up on forums posts while a movie is playing in the background.

Hopefully you can get a break soon, being out in nature is always lovely.

All good @MissGremlin!

Apologies re my delivery of my msg earlier today also- had just finished an overnight shift so didn’t word it as well as intended 🙈. Also big apologies if it was a bit of a trigger and added to your stress, not intentional of course.

I also don’t like hospital, so definitely understand where you are coming from.

Yeah I understand those doubts, I’ll hold onto that hope with you.

I don’t know how you can drink iced coffee and still manage to sleep haha. Hope it’s nice though 😋

I slept most of the day, oh! The Plummer came today and fixed my toliet water pipe!! Yaaay and I forgot to tell you I have another popsocket!!

I have also been reflecting, wonder if I should start a new thread 🤔. But still consider myself a bit new here so not sure how it all runs really yet 😅

@Chasingsunsets you're all good, no need to apologise at all. I haven't been in a great headspace lately so have been taking a bit of time off the forums at times so I don't say the wrong thing in the heat of the moment.

Having been in hospital several times and being hooked up to defib pads cos they were expecting my heart to stop has been a scary experience. So there is a bit of trauma when it comes to going to hospital again but of course I still would go if I needed to.

Thankyou, i struggle to hold hope at times but it's nice to have someone to hold onto that hope together ❤️.

Coffee doesn't keep me awake oddly enough. Besides I don't sleep much anyway 😂.

Yay for the plumber coming and fixing the toilet. Ooohhh did you get a pretty popsocket?

Reflecting is good and new threads are always welcome 😊.

Morning @NightFury my sweet, how are you feeling?

Morning @MissGremlin hope you and Casper are well?

I am exhausted.

My body is sore, tired and heavy and I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. I'm moaning and groaning and feeling sorry for myself.

@NightFury oh sweet, i hear you. I am feeling the exact same way today so we can sit with each other in these feelings. Sending you hugs beautiful ❤️.

Hugs, my friend. @MissGremlin

I hope you find opportunity to rest throughout the day.

Thankyou @NightFury ❤️.

I hope your day goes smoothly and quickly for you sweet.

Morning @MissGremlin apologies for last night fell asleep with the lights on phone not on charge and the rest, generally if I’m off to bed I’d send ya a msg and let you know 😜

Whats on for you today?

In response to your last post, nah I’ll take that one you didn’t say anything “wrong” but in reflection my msg wasn’t delivered as well as I intended it to so big apologies for that 💛

It’s good learning for me though, I am learning how to better communicate on here as how I generally communicate and find my cues is people body language, that’s always been my strongest sense! Reading rooms/reading people. You don’t have these clues over the forum which has been interesting to navigate 🫶, thanks so much for your understanding whilst I learn some more skills and definitely happy to be taught along the way by you and everyone else 🤗

Yes I do remember you mentioning hospital in our previous chats I haven’t gone though heart issues like that but hear how distressing that would have been, my trauma re hospital are related to MH ones and accidentally given too much of a medication by a Dr at the clinic and not ending up very well.
Don’t really trust what I am given or health professionals now as a result but that ok 😊 I just take extra caution with things now.

I was always in hospital as a kid too, mostly good memories there from the health professionals but no family support then really. I was left in hospital myself a lot. But that’s ok 😊

Yep I am holding onto hope with you! 🫶

Definitely happy to hear how you are tracking on the hope spectrum whenever you want to share.

I did get a colourful popsocket but now it’s glued to the back of my phone I can’t take a pic lol!! It has different shades of blue and pink, like in a fun run they can throw colour flour at you or paint, kind of looks like that 😊

Off to an appointment now not sure how this one will do a bit nerve wracking, I’ll make sure to check on the forum here for another chat if you are keen and want to.

ps I saw a black lab at the beach yesterday! Made me think of you and Casper 😊

Hello @Chasingsunsets, that's ok, my reply is very delayed aswell.

Today's been a rest day, I took Casper for a walk this morning but cut it short as I was feeling dizzy. (I'm safe).

I appreciate the apology, it can be hard to get things across via text sometimes so I understand that.I think you are doing amazing at both navigating the forums and communicating with me and others here 😊.

You'll have to forgive me if I repeat myself, I have CPTSD aswell as many different mental health diagnoses and my memory is shocking. So I forget what I've said to certain people, it's rather frustrating. I hear you regarding the trauma related to MH and I've experienced similar things so I understand. It sounds like you've had alot of time in hospital aswell, I'm sorry to hear that you were left in hospital alone but it sounds like the staff were supportive.

Your popsocket sounds lovely and colourful, and hopefully no more risking dropping your phone on Indi or yourself 😂.

Hope your appointment went ok.

Awww i can't wait to be able I take Casper on the beach for the first time but it's not safe to here at the moment.