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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Hello @MissGremlin!

How are you feeling today?

And what is on your gratitude list? 💖

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Hello @AuntGlow, I'm just a bit emotional today. But I've been listening to music, doing my puzzle and cuddling with Casper.

On my gratitude list is my amazing friend that I have, Casper and having this community here 😊.

How are you going?

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Hey @MissGremlin how are you going? I am loving the sock thread by the way ☀️

That’s great to hear that there is still time to prevent or delay its progression. The other thought I had was even though it wasn’t the results you were hoping for at least you caught it and have a chance to try tackle it!


I do hear your confusion re your results and how they don’t make sense to you. I don’t think you are alone here with feeling this way 🙏

Yeah look it will be a journey re my stuff, but thanks I also hope it will settle 😊

It appears our brains are very similar re uncertainty and the unknown. Scary right?
I wonder what advice our dogs would give us if they could talk to us! I feel like they would have very good advice for us!

I was going to ask how your colouring in of your frog was going, but I remember now @rav3n said you finished it 🐸, can you link me to the post if not too to hard to do, I’d love to see it!!

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Hello @Chasingsunsets, the sock thread is definitely a bit of fun 😊.

Yes that's very true, it's just one of those things that came unexpectedly.

Hehe if our dogs could give us advice, it would be something like just wag your tail and be happy 😂.

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What's bringing up emotion for you today? @MissGremlin

I am really glad you have your friend, Casper, and the community here to turn when things are tough. I want to acknowledge how much has shifted for you as of late; you're doing a wonderful job of both asking for support and nurturing yourself. 🥰

I am doing well! Life feels very busy atm, but I am grateful for the things I am able to do - I started studying and have been avoiding an essay I need to write due to some performing things and social events. I really need to start. haha 🫠

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@AuntGlow yesterday's results from my blood test, the knowing that I've probably caused this myself is really hard to sit with. It's just hard to forgive myself and honestly I don't even know where to start with trying to.

Thankyou, it means alot to hear that ❤️. It's not always easy and i did have a moment today where thoughts really took over and I gave in to my urges (don't worry, I'm safe). But once I was able to calm myself down I brought my focus back onto my puzzle and music and connected with the community here for some chats.

Glad to hear you are doing well, definitely sounds like alot happening though. Hope the study is going well for you. Avoiding the essay sounds like something I would do hehe, but I'm sure you will get it done, you've got this 😊.

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Good afternoon @MissGremlin how have you been tracking today? You have been in my thoughts for a bit nowwhile I have been also looking for this coin (lol) so thought now that I am taking a break I’d send a msg to check in 🫶

I also found a pair of socks I thought I lost so will have to post them soon on the sock chat!

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Hello @Chasingsunsets, I had a meeting this morning that triggered flashbacks for me so I've been sitting quietly while I calm down from those. Just starting to catch up on posts on the forums. Thankyou for thinking of me and I appreciate you checking in ❤️.

Can't wait to see the socks, I have to try and find a pair of mine that are buried in one of the drawers that I have 😂.

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Hi @MissGremlin, I hope you are feeling ok and the rest was good, how’s the weather where you are?

I really have to catchup on some posts too just finished off at an appointment and want to keep searching for my coin, so maybe I’ll get to the other chats tonight.


Look forward to seeing your socks too!!

Talk soon 🫶

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I have been there @MissGremlin. Whenever my bloods are out of balance I get upset with myself too... something I am trying to sit with is that only some things are within our control and there are many things that can contribute to blood test results. So, if you can't be gentle with yourself right now, I will do it for you. 🥰 Has your GP been able to support you?

Hey! Look at you! I know last night had some more intense moments, but it sounds like you felt what you were feeling and that you were able to redirect to what you could control/how you could feel supported. You're actively rewiring here, that's bloody amazing. 🤩

Aw thank you, I had a bit of a cry about the essay today. I am sure I will get it done, I just have to make my brain gets on board. 👏

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