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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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@Jynx i don't intentionally stain them but my stitch pjs are light blue and white so I have to be extra careful.

He hogs my pillow at night time 😂. Not sure how much longer he will be able to get away with sleeping there cos he is already getting too big, but I do love having him so close to me. It's very soothing having him lay on my legs when I'm laying on the lounge, it helps to keep me grounded. The other day when I was out and I started having flashbacks he came and sat on my lap cos I was sitting on the floor with him, he knew something was up and he stayed on my lap the whole time ♥️.

Yay more hugs, feeling the love, thankyou 😍.

I'm about to make my iced coffee and then I'm going to sit on my bed and I'm hoping I can do some colouring tonight while listening to music.

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@MissGremlin checking in on you, seeing how things are for you tonight?

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@NightFury thanks for checking in. Things are really rough and urges are strong but I'm trying to do some self care, I just made my iced coffee and I'm sitting on my bed with my music on and I'm hoping to do some colouring.

How did your study go today and did you get the things done that you wanted to?

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@MissGremlin I'm still on the couch, I've barely moved since I stopped ticking the jobs off of the job list.

I got some of my assignment done. I wrote the script for my PowerPoint presentation. Tomorrow I'll put the PowerPoint together, then record myself presenting it.

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@NightFury nothing wrong with still being on the couch, it sounds like that's what your body needs right now and that's completely ok.

Well done for getting some of your assignment done and for writing the script for the PowerPoint. You have done amazing, super proud of you ♥️.

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@MissGremlin I have the new Snow White on in the background.

Was kinda wondering if you wanted to do a grounding activity with me? It's okay if you don't and would rather/or need to focus on coloring.

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@NightFury happy to go through a grounding exercise with you. Have you got one in mind?

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@MissGremlin maybe a senses one? If it's okay with you?

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@NightFury yep totally ok with me.

What's 5 things you can see around you and describe them to me.

I can see lots of different coloured pencils.

My green sharpener that has 3 different sized holes it in.

I have oreos and almonds in a zip lock bag for my snack.

There's a leopard print blanket covering the mirror on my drawers.

There's a big black blob on my bed, oh wait that's Casper 😂.

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@MissGremlin I never intentionally stain my clothes either but yet.... 😅

I am trying to be forgiving with myself though because I kinda suspect I have dyspraxia so like... don't wanna accidentally be ableist towards myself by comparing my capacity to able-bodied people!

AWWW 😭 he's so good!! We love himmmmm!!

You're so welcome! That sounds like a lovely plan hun, got your tunes all picked out already?

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