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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Oh Casper...made me smile.

@MissGremlin

I can see the downright above the woodheater casting light on the wall

The woodheater, with glowing coals

My blue, fluffy eeyore slippers. That have black tufts of hair on top.

Snow White on my TV screen

And a grey lump taking up most of the couch beside me.

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@Jynx I'm just talented at spilling things. Although I swear when you are wearing white or anything light coloured that food intentionally attacks you 😂.

Always be forgiving towards yourself, dyspraxia or not you are still amazing ♥️. Plus I've learnt that we are just extra special with all our little quirks 😊.

He is a very good boy, there's alot of love for him everywhere I go 😊.

I got my music playing, I usually put s few songs in the queue list then I just let it play at random from there. I even have a pencil in my hand and I've done a tiny bit of colouring 😊.

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@NightFury hehe the grey lump. Well done.

Ok what's 4 things you can touch and what do they feel like?

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@NightFury

I've got my fluffy stitch socks on and they feel soft on my feet.

There's a star plush teddy on my bed, it's soft and squishy.

My dressing gown is really soft and fluffy.

I have some slime stuff with me that's got ducks and frogs in it, it's cold to touch but fun to play with.

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The grey lump beside me, her soft coat

The cold surface of the coffee table on the back of my legs

Dull pain in my head from the headache that hasn't gone away today.

My weighted blanket draped over my legs.

@MissGremlin oooh slime....

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@NightFury nice except for the pain, I hope that settles for you ♥️.

What's 3 things you can hear?

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@NightFury

I can hear Casper snoring quietly.

My heart is really pounding at the moment and i can hear it in my head and even through my ear buds.

I have music playing at the moment it's lmfao-party rock anthem.

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@MissGremlin urgh, I've had that happen in moments today.

The bird song on Snow White

Luna's sleepy breathing

The whirr of the fridge in the background.

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@NightFury it's horrible.

Ok what's 2 things you can smell or 2 smells you like?

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@MissGremlin It is...

I can smell woodsmoke from the woodheaters in the street.

The citrus scented cleaning chemicals I used in the bathroom today.

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