Battles

@rav3n yes touching the clouds would be cool. Escaping the cold and going somewhere warm and then when it's too hot being able to go somewhere cool.

Sitting down just isn't an option, I just keep stopping and getting low when I feel too close to passing out. Head is a real mess at the moment, things escalated too quickly for me to even be able to pick up on it until it was too late. I had my Milo which I'm kind of regretting cos tummy feels funny now. I'm trying to be gentle with myself right now but I'm frustrated that I wasn't able to catch this in time before it got to this point.

Thankyou for those hugs ♥️

@MissGremlin yes exactly!! i wonder if flying would be as tiring (or maybe more tiring) as running... cos then may i'd be a terrible flyer 😆

like you said - it happened so fast, there was barely time for you to pick up on it - you tried your best. you absolutely deserve gentleness 💗

do you reckon calling a helpline would be helpful right now? what's something gentle/kind (big or small) that you can do for yourself right now?

@rav3n nah surely flying is easy and relaxing, once you are up in the sky you can just glide along.

I'm trying to think back if there was any warning signs so that maybe I can catch it next time but honestly I don't feel there was anything, it was just like it hit out of nowhere.

I thought about chatting to lifeline but then I sort of wanted to try and get through this without relying on them. I'm sitting on my kitchen floor cos my legs wouldn't hold me anymore and I've got Casper cuddles ♥️.

In other news i started the cross stitch today 😊.

@MissGremlin @rav3n can I come sit too? Please

@NightFury of course you can ♥️

Thanks @MissGremlin

@MissGremlin oh true, the wind will give us momentum!!

reflecting back itself is such a good skill, but it's also tough when the warning signs aren't clear! sometimes i journal the where/what/when/where's of what's happening before things get heavy and then after i've documented a few occurrences, i try compare to see if there's a pattern. i used to do something similar with dreams too. not sure if that helps or if that's what you've done before but i thought i'd just share.

i'm glad Casper gave you some cuddles, say hi to him for me hehe. and yay to starting the cross-stitch!! excited to see how it goes!!

and yes ofc, please come join @NightFury hope you're okay?

are you both working on any new drawings/colorings recently? 💗

@rav3n yes it will 😊.

I struggle to reflect back too much cos brain just isn't great at remembering things when that fight/flight kicks in. I've tried journaling but it's not something I've ever been able to do, writing things out just doesn't happen. But I do appreciate you sharing.

Will do, he abandoned me, in fairness I had to get up off the floor so could no longer be his comfy pillow 😂. I've only done a few lines so I won't share yet but i will once I've done a bit more 😊.

I've started a new colouring 😊

@rav3n not doing so well right now, but reaching out and connecting here with you both.

I haven't started any new drawings for a week or so. Just been busy with study and work and life and trying to remember the self-care things in between.

@NightFury other than just connecting here, is there anything else that we could do that would help? Happy to chat about anything random or go through a grounding exercise, whatever you feel you need right now ♥️