Battles

@Cuddlebear thankyou. I've tried doing a list but I won't read it out and I can't hand it to him cos I'm self conscious about my writing. Honestly i never used to have issues opening up to my doctor so this is frustrating for me.

I've gotten over the cold thankfully.

Not sure what my plans for the night are, I'm a bit of a mess at the moment. I'll just sit on my bed later and do some colouring hopefully while listening to music.

Hi @AuntGlow, how are you going?

Hello @rav3n, how are you?

@MissGremlin During times when we feel messy it’s very hard to communicate our needs with anyone including the GP. I’m really sorry that you feel self conscious because you really are an amazing person who deserves all the good things in life and to feel safe and confident when you are out and about. I really honestly hope that it improves for you and I’m sure it will. You’ve had a really stressful time recently with Caspar and you being unwell. Giving yourself time to heal is important.

colouring in and music can really support feeling less anxious and can help our brains shut down a bit too.

have you been able to eat some food?

Thankyou for those kind words @Cuddlebear ❤️. I've had anxiety since I was a young child but it's really only gotten worse lately and trying to manage it on my own is a real challenge. Going out has always been hard for me but I used to just grin and bear it but now I just can't, I have panic attacks and end up having to leave. I keep my shopping trips very short, I go in, get what I need and get out as quick as possible.

My brain honestly doesn't know how to shut down. One thing I talked to my doctor about today was my lack of sleep and the fact that I can only sleep for 10-30 minutes at a time regardless of what time of day or night I'm trying to sleep. He said about a sleep study but he knows it's not an option for me, so it's just something I have to deal with but running on 2-3 hours of sleep a night is getting beyond a joke.

I had a little bit to eat earlier today but really don't have much of an appetite at the moment.

@AuntGlow sorry if I did something wrong. Thought we were going to chat a bit more about the safety plan tonight. Really needed to chat a bit about it especially after today's experience.

Oh no, you didn't at all! I am so sorry I missed this @MissGremlin, I had a few different things I was working on tonight (like groups). If that ever happens again, feel free to @ me a second time. It's no excuse for missing your comment though, I really do apologise.

I will be back tomorrow, and we can talk more then? I want to make sure you're happy with your safety plan. ☺️💛

@AuntGlow i don't like to be annoying, well at least i try not to be.

Yeah maybe we can. See what happens i guess.

Bye

Hi @MissGremlin

Hello @NightFury, how are you feeling?