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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Hi @Appleblossom, thankyou. Hope you are well.

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Hi @Till23, thanks. I hope you have been doing ok. I'd love to hear about your trip, maybe you can share when you come back if you like? I hope you enjoy it, take care of yourself.

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Hi @NightFury, thanks for the concern. I hope you are doing ok.

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I might be able to sneak a couple of anecdotes in @MissGremlin but I won't be able to say much because it will not be good for anonymity.

I'm glad to see you on the forums though and hope you are ok

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@Till23 completely understand.

Thanks.

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Hi @MJG017, how are y.... nope never mind that question 😂. I hope you are doing ok.

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@MissGremlin

Thanks for not asking. Saves me thinking of a nice way to answer it. 😁

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@MJG017 that question is just a no-no, it's not allowed 😂.

I mean I do genuinely care how you are going but it's completely up to you whether you want to share that, knowing that I'm here for both the good and the bad times. Your feelings matter either way.

What have you been up to?

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@MissGremlin

I know you do, and I do appreciate it. It just difficult to keep being positive when there's no real alternative but to just keep going.

I haven't been up to much. I was supposed to get my monthly refill on my drugs today from the hospital, but when I ordered them on Wednesday, their computer system was down so if they're not in by Monday then I'm out. If I was in a particularly negative mood, I'd think the universe is giving me a hint. I did finish my current assignment today so I'm all up to date. I started on the next one even though we have had any lectures or material on it yet. But I figure how hard can it be?

How is Casper? I got Luna a new toy. A feather on the end of a thin bendy metal stick that uses a suction cap on the base and springs around when she plays with it. So she's been a bit addicted to it.

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@MJG017 i understand how hard it must be for you. Sending you those positive vibes and awkward no-touchy hugs.

That's so frustrating that their computer system was down, really hoping they are in by Monday. Definitely not a hint from the universe though just very bad luck i reckon.

Well done on finishing your assignment, you really are doing amazing. Already starting the next one, look at you go.

Casper is doing amazing and really is very smart. We did a bit of off lead work today in a fenced off area and he did very well. I've ordered his vest which should be coming within the next 2 weeks so that's exciting.

Guess what I did on Thursday, I had my first phone call with a counsellor. It wasn't easy and I was in a very emotional state given some recent events, I almost cancelled but I pushed through and gave it a shot. I'm happy to say that it actually went rather well, yes I was a bit of a wreck talking about some things but the lady seems really nice and keen to help me. So I have another appointment booked in 2 weeks. It's a huge step for me and I'm glad that I've finally taken it given how hard it's been for me to trust any professionals cos of past experiences.

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