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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Battles

Battles

Hi all, does anyone else just feel like life is just one big sh!t show? It's just one thing after another, constant drama, family issues, money struggles, stress, anxiety it's just always something.

When do things get easier, do things ever change?

I've been through more than i care to think about in my life but today has pushed me to breaking point and it's bringing up alot of bad memories of previous suicide attempts.

I just feel like it's not worth it, it's not worth fighting, not worth hanging on anymore.

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Hello @MissGremlin, @MJG017, @NightFury how are you all feeling this morning?

I mean, @MissGremlin I can see you're feeling pretty stressed! That's an awful feeling missing your rego isn't it? The same thing has happened to me and I drove it for about a week before realising, definitely drove past cameras etc, but I got lucky and no fine came! It was a very stressful wait though, so I absolutely empathise with you and hope that you also get lucky this time

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@Ru-bee i thought I was doing ok, i had a productive morning and now it's just all gone to sh!t.

Thankfully the direction i was going isn't where the cameras are aimed at so I should be ok. But yes the anxiety over it is ridiculous. That was just the thing to set everything off once again.

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Hi @Ru-bee

I'm feeling super icky today. I'm at work though and muddling through.

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@MissGremlin

Since the got ride of the rego stickers, I've lost count of the times I've realized I've driven for a day or two after forgetting to renew it. I even set a repeating alarm to go off every 3 mo ths to remind me a day before. It goes off and I think "okay I'll just finish what I'm doing and I'll got renew the rego.". By the time I've finished what I was doing I've completely forgotten about it. I think those cameras only go off if you're speeding or run a red light because you see the flash if someone gets caught.

I was caught out once when there was a breatho just down the road from home. I blew zero, but he noticed my rego had expired the day before. He just made me renew it using the app and show him before he'd let me drive off. So I know the anxiety will be firing for you right now, but chances are you'll be fine.

That was unlucky about hitting the wrong thing and being disconnected. I do similar things all the time on my phone. The worst that happens in my case is I have to retype a reply from scratch, so I can completely understand the much higher impact of your mistake. Our minds just seem to get in our own way so often. So I'm sorry it's put you in a position when a difficult situation is just made worse. I hope you managed to, or can, reconnect.

I'm just getting ready to leave, but I'll check in when I can and see how you're going. (No touchy, but still awkward, hugs 🤗)

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How are things feeling for you today @MissGremlin? 🥰

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@AuntGlow i thought I was doing ok but then everything came crashing down 😞.

How are you going?

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Oh, I am sorry to hear this... what was the shift between okay and heavy for you? @MissGremlin

I am doing well, thank you fo asking. I bought a 2L water bottle to make sure I drink more water haha I also treated myself to a new iced latte glass... whether I stay hydrated or simply caffeinated is a gamble. 😂

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@AuntGlow honestly it was one thing that set it off being that i forgot to pay my rego for my car and only realised this morning after I'd already been out driving. But then everything just hit me.

Haha nice, I mean coffee or water there both just as good 😂.

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@MJG017 i miss the rego stickers. I get email and sms reminders and usually I pay it on the day but this time I did your trick, I saw it come up and then was like ok I'll do that in a minute cos I was in the middle of doing something then I forgot. Yeah I think the cameras only go off for red light runners or speeding neither of which I do. But still the anxiety over it is alot cos there is no way I could afford a fine.

Most cops are pretty understanding especially if you have a clean record and it's just a genuine case of forgetting to do it.

I gave up trying to reconnect as it was just frustrating me. I'm sitting in the sunshine but I'd much rather be in bed but that's not quite an option yet.

Hope the appointment is going or did go well. Thanks for those no touchy awkward hugs, very much appreciated ❤️

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@AuntGlow i feel so done right now 😞.

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