Battles

Thankyou @NightFury ❤️.

I definitely hope today is gentler for you, deep breaths and baby steps, you've got this ❤️

@MissGremlin not looking promising any more.

@NightFury oh why, what's happening for you sweet?

@MissGremlin a lot of things at the moment...

I am trying to get myself some support and it's just not easy....

I booked in to see a local GP online and it's a big step that I've been struggling to take. They rejected my appointment request. I rang them and it's because I haven't been in to see them in 7 years and they class me as a new patient.

I reached out yesterday to the Uni for the course I'm studying, to tell them what's going on and to see what supports or advice they can offer and they suggested a program that will give me extra time to complete my studies but to apply I need a diagnosis and evidence from the doctors about how it's impacting me and my ability to study. I don't have one and now it's starting to feel really difficult to get one.

Completely unrelated, yesterday, I had a meeting at work with the principal regarding next year - he basically told me that the position I have (I knew I was only contracted till December) was to replace someone on maternity leave and they're due back in December...he can't guarantee me a position past the end of this year. I knew that...but to hear it it triggered all the anxiety about my future.

I don't know...I'm just finding things really hard at the moment. I've crashed in a big heap.

@MissGremlin my friend, don't worry about me. Take care of you today.

I'm off to work.

@NightFury sorry I haven't had a chance to read or reply yet. I'm just trying to read it now..

I'm sitting with you my friend, sending you hugs ❤️

@NightFury trying to get support isn't easy, i understand that.

That's frustrating that you can't book an online appointment cos you haven't been there for so long.

That's so hard that you need to have a diagnosis to be able to apply for extra time. Really just complicates things cos it takes time to get a diagnosis.

I can imagine hearing that would have definitely triggered the anxiety even if you already knew about it. Hopefully something comes up and he is able to offer you a position for next year. But I know it's something that's going to play on your mind and having that uncertainty hanging over your head isn't going to help the current situation.

I know it's hard right now and there's no magic wand to wave to fix things. But know that you are not alone here, I'm always here to listen and offer support.

I'll chat to you throughout the day and once you have finished work if you are up for it. Thinking of you today and sending you strength to get through this ❤️

@Ru-bee @rav3n @RiverSeal @Jynx @AuntGlow is anyone around please?

@MissGremlin

Not any plans for today. I have my psych appointment early this afternoon. Then I'll probably do some more work on my assignment and do some 3D prints for some.

Well what do you know... I do have some plans! 😁

@NightFury

I'm sorry to hear the past couple of days have been so tough for you. That must be so frustrating with the GP! There seems to be so many ways that things are made so much harder for people than they really need to be. I hope you can get it sorted out. The uncertainty with your position also would be quite stressful. Do you have any plans if they don't have anything for you come December?

@MJG017 hope psych appointment goes ok for you.

Yay for some plans though, should keep you busy for a while 😊.

I'm currently having a panic attack as I forgot to renew my car rego yesterday when it was due and I drove this morning going through 2 sets of lights with cameras 😕.

Oh and I was on a chat with lifeline that I really needed but stupid me accidentally pressed the wrong button and it went out of it and now i can't reconnect.

So kind of not doing so good right now.