Battles

Thank you @MissGremlin

You are also having a hard time and are here supporting other people

@Till23 i try to support others as much as I can.

I know you do @MissGremlin and you do a very good job, I wonder if you can extend a little bit of that compassion to yourself? We really appreciate you on the forums

@Till23 really don't want to be compassionate towards myself. Feeling pretty crappy right now as I just had a seizure out of nowhere.

Oh sorry to hear that @MissGremlin have you got all your post seizure things in place?

@Till23 there isn't anything. It's just a matter of me trying to take care of myself which i really don't have in me tonight.

Tonight was already hard enough without this being added to it. It's too much for me and I can't take it anymore. I don't want to go through this, I don't want to live another minute having to suffer like this. I'm scared and I'm hurting and I want to escape the pain. How am I supposed to find a way to keep going, hope doesn't exist anymore, there's no light at the end.

@MJG017 i forgot to tell you yesterday that my ndis application was rejected, getting that phone call before I was meant to have that meeting also didn't help.

Hey @MissGremlin take some deep breaths. Can you just try to get a little bit of sleep. Do you feel drowsy after a seizure.

Have you tried a crisis service? I know they are not always that helpful but at least it's a distraction and might give you a bit of space.

Casper needs you, you know that. Try to find some joy with Casper to ease the pain.

I have definitely used my dogs to get a bit of space in my head and ease the pressure

Don't forget you can always summon the overnight moderator as well

@Till23 usually yes i do feel drowsy after a seizure but not tonight.

I did try a crisis service but the person I got really didn't care about what I was telling them or how I was feeling. They gave up on the conversation after about 15 minutes saying they don't know how to help me.

Don't get me wrong, I love Casper and yes I want to be here with him but I'm not sure it's enough to keep me going, not with everything else that's going on.