@amonrae04 wrote:
@MissGremlinI tend to get calmer at night don't know if it's a good or bad thing? Mornings are toughest for me like having to repeat this reality I find myself in for a whole day again! I get really tired at night and want to sleep but don't want to sleep as I know I'll wake up again feeling this way the next day grrrr so frustrating.
@amonrae04We need to find a way of combining our ways of coping then. I find the nights the hardest. I find my mind just is free to think, free from distractions laying there in the quiet darkness. I do feel the strain of having to go through another whole day again, but it doesn't really hit me until i have to start thinking of going to bed, because i know i wont be able to keep my mind distracted once I do.
@MissGremlin wrote:
MJG017 oh I hate that, it's happened to me so many times.
Yes having the pup does help a little bit but there's also the anxiety over what the future holds with him. There's too many unknowns, can I afford this, will he make it as an assistance dog, what if something happens to him, do I deserve him etc. So yes he is a positive but also very much a big trigger given past history.
@MissGremlin Those unknowns just make things far too hard. I know it's far too difficult to ignore them, so its no fair of me to suggest trying. But the future is unknown, and good things in our lives can disappear, but I see it now as that just meaning it so much more important to enjoy them while we have them in our lives. It must be so hard to not fear a similar thing will happen again with Casper... or some new sh1t life will throw at you both, but as I said, just try to focus on enjoying the now. At the end of the day, it's all we really have.
