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hey @MissGremlin sorry to hear the call didn't go well, sounds pretty rough being asked about graphic details - if you're up for it, perhaps sending the crisis line feedback around the call can help improve future calls? no pressure though! hope it's okay if i sit with you tonight?

p.s. i've edited your post to remove the name of the crisis line. this is cos our community guideline around 'complaints about named services' encourages members to address complaints directly with the services involved to ensure effective resolution. you're totally welcome to chat about your experience in a general manner without naming the service though!

@rav3n was just not what was needed in that moment or at all really. Not the first time it's happened, I did put feedback after the call. I'd love for you to sit with me, also would love to chat if you can?

Sorry I completely forgot about that.

@MissGremlin yeah that's totally understandable, and that's great you've put the feedback in too!

more than happy to sit and chat with you, did you wanna chat about anything in particular? or some distraction chats?

no stress at all!!

@rav3n could really go for some distraction chats. Still trying to calm myself down which I'm slowly getting there with but having moments where the intensity spikes back up suddenly.

@rav3n if you wanna have a laugh, I was just doing handstands in my loungeroom 😂. Needed to get some energy out and felt appropriate at the time, not sure my arms will agree tomorrow 😂

no worries, distraction chats it is! @MissGremlin

what are some sounds, textures or scents that you like? or do you have a sound/scent/texture you hate?

i used to hateeee the feeling of jeans/denims until i was in high school and then suddenly i didn't mind it. i love vanilla scents, and i love the sound of nature like waves crashing, or even just the sound of breeze.

just read your other post omg, how's the hand-standing going so far? 😂 i sooo badly want to learn!! can you walk around with your hands while doing the handstand??

@rav3n

Sounds: i love waves crashing, thunderstorms, rain but it has to be natural/real life, like i can't listen to it on a speaker etc.

Smells: that's a tricky one cos I get triggered by some smells. But I love vanilla and also bubblegum.

Textures: i can't stand newspaper, sandpaper, the feeling of walls/ceiling, cotton balls, velvet. I love the feeling of my oodie, it's soft and fluffy.

Handstands were fun, I used to be able to walk around on my hands but not anymore. I can still do cartwheels aswell but that's more an outside thing.

@rav3n massive crisis line failure right now.

Trigger warning

I was just mid conversation with one when they asked if I had any thoughts of ending my life today, which I replied yes, and the person ended the chat on me. Well how do you think one feels after that 😞. I'm not sure why I even bother anymore.

@MissGremlin yess i love thunderstorms too. something about hearing them in the natural environment makes it so much better, recorded versions don't really do it justice, hey.

bubblegum is a good one, i used to love the grape hubba bubba flavour haha. are you a lollies/candy/chocolate person?

completely forgot about sandpaper and newspaper too, oh and hate the walls as well. would be cool to have textured walls that were soft and comfy.

cartwheeling is so cool!! i can do... a somersault on the floor 😅

@MissGremlin oh gosh, i'm so so sorry that they ended the chat like that! i really hope that they accidentally ended it or something... i really hope it wasn't intentional.

i know that reaching out takes a lot of strength, and i hope you know that the crisis line's action does not reflect on you - you absolutely deserve help, it's just unfortunate that they weren't able to provide it in the way you deserve. sending you gentle hugs 💙

if at any moment you feel like acting on those thoughts, please call 000 or if you can't, let us know so we can contact them for you. your safety is super important to us.