Battles

@MissGremlin Casper sounds absolutely adorable! I love when they twitch and make little noises in their sleep. It's such a cute thing to watch!

I'm glad you're trying 💛

I had a fairly quiet day today. I did my grocery shopping, gave the house a bit of a clean, but I decided to have a slow morning for once. I had a little sleep-in and enjoyed my iced latte outside this morning, which was really nice. I don’t have much on tomorrow either, going to get my nails done and catch up on some TV I think 😊

@Nala2022 it's definitely so cute to watch, 99% of the time when Casper dreams he's always wagging his tail, he's such a happy boy even in his dreams 😂.

Having a slow morning and a quiet day sounds wonderful, I'm so glad you had a sleep in and got to enjoy your iced latte outside this morning. Tomorrow sounds like a lovely day, I hope you enjoy getting your nails done and watching some TV ❤️.

I'm hoping to get a little bit of cleaning done tomorrow as I have an inspection on the 5th but other than that I'm hoping to just take it easy. I'm finding the days are hard to get through after having a rough night so I'm trying to take things slowly and gently when I'm feeling so fragile and vulnerable.

@MissGremlin Casper really does sound like such a happy boy! He sounds like such a little sweetheart

Thank you so much. I’m usually on the go a lot and don’t give myself much time to just chill, so I’m going to take advantage of the opportunity to slow down when I can

I think taking things slowly and gently tomorrow sounds like a good plan. After such rough nights, it makes sense that getting through the days feels harder, so please don’t put too much pressure on yourself to get everything done before the inspection. Even a little bit at a time is enough, and you deserve those quieter moments to rest and recharge too

I hope you have a gentler night tonight and that tomorrow feels a little easier on you 💛

@Nala2022 he's definitely a sweetheart, not sure on the little part though 😂.

I'm glad that you're giving yourself that time, especially when you are usually on the go alot. You deserve time for yourself where you can relax and enjoy things ❤️.

I'm lucky that there's not too much to do given that I had to have the house ready for the meeting the other day. It's just little things like cleaning the oven and stove, wiping down surfaces and giving each room a general tidy, then vacuuming through the house. I plan on doing little bits at a time and resting in between tasks.

Thankyou sweet ❤️. I'm hoping tonight is better than last night but we're off to a shaky start with where things are sitting (I'm safe), currently chatting to a crisis service.

@MissGremlin Haha fair point, he’s a big sweetheart! 😂

That sounds like a good approach with the house. Doing little bits at a time and resting in between sounds much more manageable than trying to get everything done in one go

I’m sorry things are feeling shaky tonight. I’m glad you’ve reached out to the crisis service rather than sitting with everything on your own. I hope they’re able to offer some support and help you through this difficult patch. Please be gentle with yourself tonight 💛

Haha @Nala2022, yes he is 😂.

I just finished talking to the crisis service, it was really hard to have the tough conversation about where things are sitting but I'm glad that I was able to talk things through. I'm hoping that I'm able to get some sleep, I'm exhausted just scared for what the night will be like (I'm safe for the moment).

Thankyou sweet, i hope you have a good night and that you're able to get some sleep later. Thankyou for the chats tonight ❤️.

@MissGremlin I’m glad you were able to have that conversation with the crisis service and I can imagine how difficult it was to talk about everything, especially when things have been feeling so overwhelming. I hope being able to talk it through has helped a little, and that you can get some much needed rest tonight. I understand feeling scared about how the night might go, so please remember you deserve support if things become difficult again

And you're very welcome lovely. I’m glad we got to chat tonight too. I hope tomorrow feels even a little lighter for you 💛

@Nala2022 I'll try to remember.

Thankyou sweet, catch you next time ❤️.

I've been trying so hard to settle but everytime I close my eyes i keep seeing things happening, seeing myself hurting myself and acting on things. It's so scary and confronting, I don't know how to make it stop. This is what keeps me awake most nights and then when i do doze off it's waking up to nightmares and panic attacks. I'm exhausted and I just want to be able to rest, I feel like I'm losing myself, my mental illnesses are taking over and soon there'll be nothing left of me.

I'm safe at the moment, waiting to get through to a crisis service. Casper is laying on top of me to try to help calm me and I'm keeping my hand on him, trying so hard to stay grounded.

Hi there @MissGremlin,

Firstly, well done for coming to the platform to share these battles you are currently facing. It sounds like this is weighing heavily on your mind and is causing you a lot of fear which is understandable. Not being able to sleep must be extremely difficult, especially when this has been ongoing problem for you.

It is also great to hear that you are reaching out to a crisis service to receive the support you deserve. The community and Casper are here to sit with you through this difficult time.