Battles

Hi @MissGremlin 💫

It sounds like tonight has been incredibly overwhelming, and I'm really glad you reached out and shared what’s been happening. Having that phone call bring up painful feelings again, on top of everything else you’ve been carrying, would be a lot for anyone to sit with.

It also makes sense that the uncertainty around your ambulance cover left you feeling frightened. When you’re already feeling vulnerable, unexpected stresses like that can make everything feel even more intense.

I'm really glad to hear you’re safe for now and that you’re looking after yourself by watching a movie, spending time with Casper and trying to do some diamond art. I hope you can continue being gentle with yourself tonight, and if these feelings continue to feel difficult to manage, I want to encourage you to keep reaching out to your supports tonight fi you can. You don’t have to carry all of this on your own.

Take extra gentle care tonight✨🌻

Hello @SunsetSunrise, it really has been. So many big feelings and thoughts to be sitting with all at once. Then on top of all that I'm hearing voices that are extremely loud and relentless. It's horrible when there's so much happening both in your body and mind and it feels impossible to settle or relax.

I'm glad i was able to eventually pay the ambulance cover but it definitely made me panic when I couldn't.

I've been doing my best to keep distracted and to try to settle things but despite everything I've done it hasn't helped and things have been building up still. I'm going to see if I can get through to a crisis service, hoping that it might help to talk things through even if it's just enough to settle so that I can hopefully get some sleep.

I'm safe for now, I've just sat in bed and Casper is keeping a very close eye (paw) on me, I also made an iced coffee which I'm sipping occasionally. I really want to be able to sleep as I've been awake since 5am.

@Jynx I'm feeling upset and frustrated, I waited for over an hour trying to get through only to have my internet have a hissy fit so I lost my place in the queue 😞. I've reconnected so I'm waiting in the queue again, it's hard sitting with everything alone though. I'm safe for now, sitting and doing my diamond art with Casper snuggled up next to me.

Oh how incredibly frustrating @MissGremlin!! I'm sorry that happened, it is really poor timing for internet troubles for sure :(

I'm glad to hear you are persevering and trying to stay connected where you can. Keep Casper close, and hold on tight hun. You got this <3

@Jynx it really was poor timing.

I'm doing my best too. I'm so exhausted but not in a sense of sleep but a mental exhaustion.

Mental exhaustion can be very different to physical fatigue - the combo of the two is hectic hey @MissGremlin. I hope that you are able to get some support and get some rest and reprieve hun. Sending sleepy vibes your way <3

Thankyou @Jynx ❤️. I just finished talking to the crisis service and I was honest with how I'm feeling and what's happening for me at the moment. Don't feel they cared though. I'm just going to sit here and do my diamond art, hopefully I'll get sleepy soon.

Hope you have a good rest of your night sweet ❤️.

Hello everyone @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself @NightFury @Captain24 🫶

How is your Sunday going? 🥰

Hello @AuntGlow I've tagged you in captain's thread rather than trying to repeat things.

@MissGremlin @AuntGlow until the issue with notifications not working when tagging more than 3 people in a post is fixed I’m stepping away from the forums. This issue is leaving me feeling disconnected from lots of people. I’m not wanting to talk to support lines. I am missing the connections with almost everyone on here who I’ve gotten to know and know I can be honest with regarding my struggles and feelings caused by inner tormoil.

on the weekend I email my psychiatrist, almost everyone night I’m having vivid distorted dreams and/or nightmares (side effect of my new med), memories of which are staying with me during the day. Tired on all aspects and today can’t stop crying. Email reply from psychiatrist this morning, she is aiming at phoning me today to discuss the side effects etc.

feeling worse this morning than I’ve felt for awhile. Today just want to go back to bed and stay there. I’m wanting to go to sleep and never wake up. Nothing matters anymore. I’m safe.