Battles

I've just had a horrific nightmare, now I'm having a panic attack. I feel like each time the things the nightmares are about are getting so much worse and becoming harder for me to calm down from. I just keep seeing it over and over again, it feels so real, too real.

I'm feeling so scared and I'm unable to connect to a crisis service. I'll keep trying but I didn't want to sit alone right now. I'm safe, snuggled up with Casper, trying to focus on his breathing as he's laying across me

Soo glad Casper is with you 💓 @MissGremlin

Hugging you my friend 🧡

I'm here for you @MissGremlin I just want you to know that you're not alone this morning! Waiting alongside you with Casper! 💜

Thankyou beautiful @Shaz51 ❤️

Thankyou @heartathome sweet, I truly appreciate it ❤️. Hope you're doing ok sweetheart ❤️.

@Nala2022 the nightmares are making it hard to distinguish between them and reality. It's like I'm getting stuck in them. I'm sorry that you suffer with them too, they are so horrible.

The medication is known for this side effect so I'm trying to ride it out and hoping that it settles. I'm only on half a tablet for a week and then increase to a full tablet after that. I have an appointment on the 30th to see how things are going then so I'll talk to my doctor then. This medication is the only one with the potential to help reduce the nightmares, so I'm hoping that I can stick it out and that it works.

I'm trying so hard to focus on Casper, waking up like this is exhausting and scary. My breaths are so shaky at the moment, working on steadying them.

Glad you're doing ok. Hoping that today treats you kindly ❤️.

I get what you mean 😪 it can feel all too much and when they happen frequently, it can be hard to separate them from reality. They are horrible. Does anything help, even a little?

Oh I see, that sucks it's a side effect but hopefully it does settle for you. See how you go at the doctors on the 30th, I hope it does help to reduce the nightmares. Sometimes it can take time for the medication to properly work too. I hope you find some relief soon 🤞

I know @MissGremlin, you're doing the best you can to get through this. Tell me something you're looking forward to? Could even be something small.

Thank you so much, I hope today gets better for you 💛

@Nala2022 it's everytime I sleep which makes it hard. There's so much fear around trying to sleep cos i know what's coming. I've not found anything that helps, after I'm awake i at least have Casper and he lays across me but it takes hours to calm down after them.

I'm hoping it does as I need some relief and the chance to be able to sleep properly.

Not so much something I'm looking forward to but i just made myself a cuppa and I've sat back in bed to drink it. I got to see my friend and her bubs yesterday which was nice and I might get to see them again today.

I'm worried about Captain, hoping she's just busy working.

Thankyou and you're so welcome ❤️.

Yeah, the anticipation of what's to come, I know that's hard. Do you like having something on in the background like the TV on or soft music playing when you're trying to get to sleep? I really hope it settles for you soon, try and keep focusing on Casper and your cuppa, you've got this @MissGremlin

I'm glad you were able to get up even for a little and make yourself a cuppa, I just finished mine. Aw that's so lovely, I hope you get to see them again today. That will be a good distraction for you.

I'm sure she's busy with work, could even be sleeping still. I'm waiting on a reply from her also from this morning. You're so caring 💛

@Nala2022 I like it to be quiet when I'm going to sleep unless it's natural noises like last night when it was raining outside. Casper is waiting for me to finish the last bit of my cuppa so that he can have the last drop 😂.

It would be nice to see her again and bubs, nothing like getting smiles from babies ☺️. It also saves my sanity from having to jump-start my car every 5 minutes 😂.

Her last post was concerning and I know she has been struggling so much. The people I know here aren't just random people, I've made connections with them and I care alot about all of them.