Battles

@tyme well I didn't drive. I went with my friend who drove.

It wasn't a bad drive and mostly straight road's other than the crazy bumps.

Nice @MissGremlin !

Hope it was a worthwhile trip 🙂 I'm sure it's also nice to be home

@tyme it was a nice little trip, meeting my friend was the best part of it. It's actually not nice to be home other than having Casper with me.

Don't you just live with Casper @MissGremlin ?

I thought having your own space, bed etc would be nice.

@tyme can't explain the situation.

It's nice to have my own bed and be back with Casper.

I tried to have an early night given that I only got 2 hours of sleep on Saturday night but I've woken up 3 times so far since 10.30pm having full on panic attacks. I've only been able to doze off briefly before having a nightmare which then wakes me up, then when I do go back to sleep I go back into the same nightmare.

I'm feeling so emotional and scared, going through this so much is taking a huge toll in many ways. I have nothing left in me physically, I'm completely worn down. I'm so tired of things being like this, I'm tired of fighting when things aren't changing despite me trying so hard.

I'm safe for now, snuggled with Casper and I've been trying to calm myself down enough so that I can sleep again. But I'm scared that it's just going to happen again if I fall asleep, I don't want to keep going through this.

Hi @MissGremlin

sounds like you are settled with Casper and home in your cosy safe space- which is great to hear. I am sorry to hear about the way your sleep has been disrupted, sometimes taking pressure off yourself (not "making" yourself sleep) can ease us out of nightmares and the panic that comes.

Maybe sitting up in bed putting a light on and doing a grounding exercise - or making a cup of tea or milo - might sound silly but might help ease you out of the nightmare and into something calmer.

Snuggle up with Casper and reach out if you need

Mindee 🙂

Hello @Mindee, thankyou for your reply. I did actually try this but I still had more nightmares when I went back to sleep.

I've woken up in a panic again and I've been trying to calm myself down for about 30 minutes now. I've splashed water on my face, had a drink, walked around my house and went outside, tried to focus on my breathing, made some lucky stars and I've tried many other things. I've been trying so hard but I'm getting frustrated and disheartened that nothing is helping.

I'm safe and laying in bed with Casper, giving him cuddles and still trying to slow things down. I'm just so tired of this happening.

@Jynx I was just taking some pictures of Zola. Can't keep her out for too long in this weather as it's very cold.

@MissGremlin AWWW SO CUTE!!

They have such cool feeling skin hehe. Must be very inactive in the winter months!! Eats less too?