Battles

It’s okay @MissGremlin I know how thoughtful you are I take no offence whatsoever, I have no judgment and was just happy talking with you 😊. It’s all okay my friend.
I am glad you could get what you needed out. It gets heavy sometimes. I totally understand.

@Chasingsunsets thankyou sweet ❤️.

I'm sitting here watching the big bang theory and making lucky stars. I'm not tired which worries me.

what colour stars you making tonight @MissGremlin ?

@Chasingsunsets I'm working on green at the moment.

Nice good colour choice ☺️, I’m gonna bounce, might catch up tomorrow, take it easy 🫶 @MissGremlin

@MissGremlin - I’m sorry things are so tough right now sweet but just know you’re not alone. You have got this. I’m here for you every step of the way even though things are not great for me right now.

keep doing you skills. You’ve got this.

Thankyou @Fluttershy1 sweet. That's the good thing about the community here is that we're here for each other.

I'm just sitting and making stars.

I’m sitting here with Perry @MissGremlin - he’s silently judging meh. Hahaha. He’s like why aren’t we in bed

I'm still awake with so many thoughts and feelings racing through me. I don't know where I went so wrong to be let down by yet another service, it's bringing up all the painful things that I've been told before, that I'm too complex, that I'm a lost cause, that there's nothing anyone can do, that my problems can't be fixed. I try so hard to get support, to reach out when I need to just like i get encouraged to do but yet I'm left with no support and left feeling hurt and distressed more than I was before I reached out. Is there even support out there for me or am I truly too complex that I can't be helped?.

I don't know how to stop the thoughts and feelings, I've tried so hard doing things to keep them at bay. I thought I'd be tired by now so that I could rest and not have to think or feel anything but I'm still wide awake. I've done my diamond art, made stars, listened to music, watched a TV show, reached out to a crisis service, walked around my house and outside, had something to drink, I've tried to relax cuddling Casper and my wheat bag, but still I can't just sleep.

I'm still safe for now and I'm trying so hard to keep pushing through. Just feeling so stuck and lost. I'm laying in bed with Casper by my side.

Hi @MissGremlin ,

I'm really sorry to hear how let down and alone you're feeling right now after reaching out for support. It sounds like you've been working incredibly hard to practice what helps ground you, and I'm glad to hear you're safe for now with Casper by your side too.

Sitting with you this morning💙