Battles

Hello @Honeymoon, thankyou for simply being here. It's really had such a huge impact on me and I'm struggling with it. I feel like i don't have a safe space to talk about things now (i know i have here but have to be careful around specific thoughts). I tried so hard last night just to get through, it scares me cos tonight would be another night that I could connect to that service and now I can't. It was part of my routine and now it's been ripped away from me. I'm safe, just laying in bed with Casper at the moment.

Hello lovely,

How are you feeling today? @MissGremlin

@Captain24 is such an incredible support, I am so glad you have each other.

Not feeling safe but still being safe makes lots of sense... and you're an absolute gem of a human to be supporting your friend through their suicidal thoughts whilst experiencing your own.

I am curious to know if hearing the affirmations and support you have provided to them has landed with you at all? 💛

Hello @AuntGlow sweet, things are feeling so heavy today. I barely slept but then got up early to get to a shop that isn't open for long on Saturdays then decided to do my shopping when I was out. I came home and crashed it, I have felt really nauseous all day which has been hard to sit with cos of emetophobia.

I'm really glad to have @Captain24 around and it's great that we can support each other.

I have a persistent thought today that just won't leave me alone. It's that I should just shut down so that people will forget about me and then when I'm gone noone will be hurt or miss me. I'm safe for now and just trying to drink a hot chocolate.

I read the affirmations and i like them but my brain instantly shuts them down turning any positivity into negativity. As for what I say to my friend in support, it's easy to say it to them but I can't tell myself the same things.

How are you going?

Hello @NightFury my sweet, sorry I didn't get to reply to your post earlier today.

How's things feeling for you?

Things are kind of all stirred up. @MissGremlin My anxiety has been full on for the last few days and I am exhausted by it.

She'll be right though.

How's your Saturday been?

@NightFury sorry your anxiety has been full on for the last few days sweet. It's honestly so hard to sit with but you're doing well.

My Saturday has been pretty crappy. I barely slept last night and then headed to the shops early today. I came home and crashed it as I was exhausted.

Have you got any plans for tomorrow sweet?

Not sleeping makes things harder and I'm finding out that it maked the world feel pointier @MissGremlin and sharper.

Tomorrow I have a list of jobs I would like to get done. I hope to clean out the inside of my car (I washed it this afternoon), tidy and clean out the spare room, vacuum and wash the floors and get some study done.

You?

@NightFury yes not sleeping has such a huge impact on how the world feels.

Hoping you can get things done tomorrow and find some moments in between for a bit of self care.

I don't have anything on as such but there's things I do have to get done which exhaust me.

I hope so too @MissGremlin but tomorrow might be a see how I feel day.

I hope you can find moments in your day to rest and recuperate your energy

@NightFury if you ever can't sleep and want to chat I'm only ever a tag away ☺️.

Hoping things feel better for you tomorrow sweet ❤️.