Battles

The worries that come up are... @MissGremlin

* That I'm not ready.

* I don't know what to talk about, or what to expect.

* I don't have time to plan, rehearse what I'm to say, or to prepare.

I've never done face to face appointments before.

@NightFury i can understand all of those worries and they are completely valid.

Not being ready is hard and there's not much time to prepare for it. If you really aren't up for it I'd think about changing it rather than it becoming more of a stress for you.

Hello lovelies,

I am floating around and thought I would pop in! @NightFury @MissGremlin

I can see you have a therapy session tomorrow, which I understand is bringing up some vulnerability for you, and I think your feelings are absolutely valid - not knowing can feel really scary, especially when you're trying something new. On the other hand, this is also incredibly brave! And the not knowing can be an opportunity to sit with curiosity and exploration. So, I wonder how "I don't know what to talk about, or what to expect and I don't have time to plan, rehearse what I'm to say, or to prepare" could be reframed with this in mind? 💛

Hello @AuntGlow sweet, how are you going?

I'm good @MissGremlin 💛

How are you? And how was your appointment?

@AuntGlow I'm having a moment where things are feeling lighter so trying to enjoy it.

My appointment was actually good. She's really proud of me and there's been a few positive things to share. Whilst there's still negatives and alot gong on, she can see that I've been working hard to change how things are. She's still working on getting the right support for me and won't give up on me until she knows I have that.

YAY!!! Yes, please enjoy it. @MissGremlin

That must have been really encouraging to hear. 🥹

You absolutely deserve someone in your corner who can support you and advocate for you.

I am so happy to read this. 🤩

@AuntGlow I'm doing my best to. Nibbling on roast beef at the moment that i cooked.

Thankyou sweet ❤️.

Hi @AuntGlow

My first session with an in person psychologist. Reframing my anxious thoughts about not knowing could maybe sound something like this, "maybe it's okay not to know, maybe it's okay not to plan and prepare and rehearse because sometimes you need to be flexible and to not have expectations." Or it could be a conversation I have with the psychologist - "look, I'm kind of anxious because I don't know what your expectations of me and of these sessions are..."

@AuntGlow it's all come crashing down and I don't know why 😞. I was sitting doing my diamond art and watching a TV show when I just got a horrible feeling of dread over me and the thoughts came on with such intensity, i tried to remember what lead to me feeling lighter but I couldn't get back to that feeling.

I'm safe for now. I've packed up the diamond art and I'm laying on my lounge snuggled up with Casper. I'm waiting to get through to a crisis service as I don't like how strong things are at the moment and don't want to sit alone with it all.