Battles

Thanks my friend. Means a lot @MissGremlin

im taking things slowly, one day at a time.

I went to bed 2ish this morning only as eyes were feeling sore and 2 cats telling me “bed time”. I’ve been awake since about 6am. Much to displeasure of my cats, I didn’t get up until about 6:45am.

yesterday I went out to few hrs of domino game, ear plugs in and started disassociating. First time that’s ever happened outside of my place.

ive done post explaining how few things recently have left me feeling confused (decided not to mention feeling emotional), hoping to discuss etc. up to other person now.

I made mistake recently trying to reorganise my room. Found out the hard way autistic brain doesn’t like change. Putting most things back where they were and trying to declutter at same time

thinking of you and hoping today is being kind to you (plus Casper is behaving as much as possible for a lab. 😆)

@Flutterbug9 taking things slowly, one day at a time is perfectly ok sweet.

Sounds like sleep has been a bit rough for you too? I'm glad you did get some sleep though. Lol to the cats, Casper harasses me for breakfast around 6.30am 😂.

Dissociating is hard especially when it happens in public but you did so well to get through despite it sweetheart.

I did have a quick read through the post you put up. Hope it helps to move past things for you sweet, I know it's hard if no response or not the response expected etc.

Ahhh yes I don't cope with change, my room is always kept the same way as is the rest of my house. Good opportunity to declutter at the same time though.

Thankyou sweetheart, today has been pretty hard with a very long meeting (just over 2 hours) and it was in person. I was lucky to have my friend and her bubs with me though so it helped, I got lots of cuddles with bubs and smiles. Casper is always a good boy, I missed him while I wasn't here but he was very happy to see me when I got back.

Sending lots of love and hugs sweet, always here for you ❤️.

I did some Schema therapy with my previous psychologist, tapping into some of the things I remember from it to try to deal with the unknown. I’ve been doing it with person

I know off the forums. Wouldn’t call them a friend, is an acquaintance. They message on FB when suits them, some times leaving me trying to cope with all the what if questions in my head for ages.

3hours in a meeting. 🙁. That’s a long time with potential to be draining on anyone. Happy to hear you were not on your own and that your friend was with you. Could the outcome be something positive for you? No pressure to answer, just my curious side coming out.

best welcome home is to be greeted by a pet.

Im clearly the slave in this place, I’m lucky if I get any type of reaction after I’ve been out

my stress levels are high, I’m concerned out one aspect of my physical health. Cardiologist appointment next week.

2 bags of items ready to go to op shop. 🙂

Hope you ended up getting some sleep last night @MissGremlin 💜

Me forgetting you have a snake gives you an idea of how bad my memory is 😅 If you wanna share pics again feel free, thought I'd prompt you over here tho cos I know Captain isn't too fond of the ol danger noodles 😋

Also our dear @Flutterbug9 has responded to you above 😉

@Jynx i did get some sleep last night but I woke up with a migraine which has lingered all day.

Haha it's ok, I questioned whether I had or not cos my memory isn't great either 😂. They aren't everyone's cup of tea but I love them. I haven't been able to get many pics lately but I will over the next few days, she just got fed today so won't handle her until Friday. Here's one from the other day when she wanted out of her vivarium 😂.

Found another one in my camera roll for you too.

Thankyou for reminding me about flutterbugs reply, I did start replying earlier but struggled with words so I thought I'd come back to it after.

@Flutterbug9 it's good that you've been trying to use some of it to help now sweet. I get what you mean about the friend as that's the same as what mine does, it's hard to deal with.

It was just over 2 hours, I corrected my post as I hit the wrong number 😂. But it was really long to sit through. The outcome will affect me to a degree but it wasn't directly for me if that makes sense at all. I can't really say anything more about it I'm sorry.

Yes I love coming home to Casper, it doesn't matter if I was gone for 5 minutes or an hour he is always so happy to see me, his whole butt wags 😂.

Haha cats are so different, sometimes they just don't have a care in the world.

Oh that's tough sweet and i can understand the concern, I'm glad you have an appointment next week though and I hope it goes ok for you.

2 bags ready to go is amazing, well done sweetheart.

It's been so lovely to hear from you again, big hugs sweet ❤️

omg so CUTE @MissGremlin

Yeah definitely not everyone's cuppa, I think not many would call em cute either. But when I see videos of them yawning for example? THE BEST.

@Jynx hehe they are definitely cute I reckon. Seeing them yawn is adorable.

I had to laugh the other day when Casper got butter on his nose 😂.

The white dot looks sooo funny of Caspers nose @MissGremlin

Some times can take me day or 2 to find the right words. Took about a week after chatting with @Jynx about that “passionate hobby” thread until I found the right words

reptiles in general not my thing, all good. World and life would be very, very boring if everyone liked exactly the same things. 😊

Oh @MissGremlin he's like "ma, help, butter on me snoot."

And hi, my friend.